I AM QUITTING BAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Manda says it's not doing me any good and she is right. Why the hell did I just spend an entire school day and then some with people that I really just do not get along with? Why the hell am I still in band? There is no reason. Ashley says I should stay because I am good. That is not a reason to stay. That is a reason for people to notice that I am not there.
Wednesday, orchestra. I was sitting there staring at muh music with muh hands in my pockets and just thinking that I really don't want to be there, and Cramer walks up to the front and everybody gets ready to play, and he asks me: "Erin? Are you playing today?" and I almost just walked out. I really think that I should have. I am not friends with anybody in band that will be there next year, and I guess that I really just do not agree with most of the people in my graduating class. Just because I would happen to be the best clarinet player in the district next year, does not mean that I have to stay. I do not want to. The people obviously do not give a fuck about me, besides Jenny and Ashley, so why the hell do I even bother?
Fuck it all to hell.
Justine said I should stay in Symphonic band....
I don't know ....
I really hope not....
I have to go see my councilor m-day to see if I can take something in place of band.
I would be so much happier...
maybe I would stop cutting...
NAW!!!!
-Emma
I shall think about it...