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Blah, I'm in that mood again, a bit tired already but... awake enough to talk.
Multiple things have been happening since my arrival. Both good and bad.
I was told that I was Clingy, not that it hasn't been said before but ever since sophmore year I've tried to rid myself of that fucking plague. That needing of other people. I find it the biggest most disgusting thing in the whole world. The reliance on other people for happiness. Ever since that was said to me its like a hungry wolf gnawing on its own legs in hunger. God that fucking pisses me off. I don't want to seem clingy in any fucking way. But right now all I can do is qoute songs "I'm sorry for the way I am."
I'd rather live my life alone forever, then have to NEED someone.
I'm so weak on the inside it disgusts me... I have serious mental problems... I don't even know why I cry like this anymore... I just know there is apart of me, that is a supressed void of pain and sorrow in me.
I havn't writing anything meaningful in this thing for a long while, but this one does mean a great deal to me.
If could just burst, put all my emotions out and let go, the explosive force would be larger then a Nuke.
Other than that I don't have many problems with my roommates.
I also hate women as a race. I guess its just that I've seen this repeated cycle over and over again its just getting to the point where I wanna blow my brains out. They are so gullable. Speaking from personal experience I'll give an example of what I mean. As long as Girl (A) is as gullable as the rest of their race, Guy (B) n treat treat (A) like shit, to whatever extent. Now usually subject (A) will say "I hate (B) and will never deal with (B) again. But as soon as Subject (B) comes up with an Excuse (C), (A) will go right back to (B) without moments hesitation. There for (B) is closer to sex (D). Now usually guy (B) will only do this when (A) is the easiest accessible peice of ass. (see D)
I'm currently sending out this theory to The prized congression of geniuses
Cause I've overseen this theory multiple times, and if you oversee a theory with a high percentage it becomes a FACT
So finally an equation might look like A-B=A(B+C)=D
Chimaira is a good way to vent anger.
Multiple things have been happening since my arrival. Both good and bad.
I was told that I was Clingy, not that it hasn't been said before but ever since sophmore year I've tried to rid myself of that fucking plague. That needing of other people. I find it the biggest most disgusting thing in the whole world. The reliance on other people for happiness. Ever since that was said to me its like a hungry wolf gnawing on its own legs in hunger. God that fucking pisses me off. I don't want to seem clingy in any fucking way. But right now all I can do is qoute songs "I'm sorry for the way I am."
I'd rather live my life alone forever, then have to NEED someone.
I'm so weak on the inside it disgusts me... I have serious mental problems... I don't even know why I cry like this anymore... I just know there is apart of me, that is a supressed void of pain and sorrow in me.
I havn't writing anything meaningful in this thing for a long while, but this one does mean a great deal to me.
If could just burst, put all my emotions out and let go, the explosive force would be larger then a Nuke.
Other than that I don't have many problems with my roommates.
I also hate women as a race. I guess its just that I've seen this repeated cycle over and over again its just getting to the point where I wanna blow my brains out. They are so gullable. Speaking from personal experience I'll give an example of what I mean. As long as Girl (A) is as gullable as the rest of their race, Guy (B) n treat treat (A) like shit, to whatever extent. Now usually subject (A) will say "I hate (B) and will never deal with (B) again. But as soon as Subject (B) comes up with an Excuse (C), (A) will go right back to (B) without moments hesitation. There for (B) is closer to sex (D). Now usually guy (B) will only do this when (A) is the easiest accessible peice of ass. (see D)
I'm currently sending out this theory to The prized congression of geniuses
Cause I've overseen this theory multiple times, and if you oversee a theory with a high percentage it becomes a FACT
So finally an equation might look like A-B=A(B+C)=D
Chimaira is a good way to vent anger.