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May 26, 2008 11:47



An interesting curse we're having today, especially in light of what Ianto told me about these daemons.

I don't have one. I keep remembering what Tosh said about being unable to read me when she had the necklace, as if I was dead. I wonder if I'm just not cursed or if I didn't get this curse because there is no soul to be pulled outside my body.

I regret what happened with Ianto last night. I know it'll will worry him but I just can't seem to find a way out of myself back to him. It's the same with Blue, I can see both of them trying to reach out for me but I can't ...

I need to find a way to deal with this pain and as much as people want to help I don't know how to let them. I look at the Doctor and I know that when I come through this, I'll be more alone than I was before, much like he is in a way. As he said, keeping that part that needs to remain locked only to myself.

I have to figure out how to fix myself. I have to.

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