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i wiped vomit from a toddler's mouth today with my shirt because i had nothing else. i pushed him in his stroller for too many minutes saying 'you're ok' because there was nothing else to say. i dont think he was even listening. i recieved one call from connor's mother telling me that they were going to be 20 minutes late...and i told her about his accident. listening to MY mother telling me to check on him every now and again to see if he is brething was surreal. i recieved another call 20 minutes later from her, telling me that they are watching a man being pried from his car...and that they might be hours, between waiting for lifestar and talking to the police. she told me she was shaking. i have no reason to, but i am shaking too. emergency vehicles have been driving by for the past 5 minutes...this is one of the few times i have ever heard them without wondering where they are going. i dont like being alone here. i dont like being alone here at night. tomorrow is my 16th birthday and this has been so so much.
another ambulance jut drove past.
another ambulance jut drove past.