Vindicated.. .
i was so terrible and i didnt know what else to do. whatd he expect!. and now.. everythings over and done with and its too late. and he has a fucking girlfriend? sinec WHEN. asdasioduejraskdjasldaskdoqwkd........................................ GOD. maybe things SHOULD be this way. ive been trying for so fucking long to get out of this MESS. and it seems the only way to get out was with out him.... so thats what i did. i had turned into the person i promised myself i never would become. ive seen too many people, TOO MANY people go through this.. become this.. terrible cold, heartless, .. person. andd now is that what ive become? has it really come to this? im sorry.. im sorry im sorry. im sorry. or maybeim not. maybe its finally over. its really over. is this what i had been wanting all along??????. ............. why cant i just LET GO. like i always told HIM to do.. and now that it seems he has.. i cant STAND it.
for the past month. i was so proud of myself. now that i look back.. how could i be proud of how iw as acting? .. when all he was doing was trying.... or maybe im giving him too much credit? ya he fucked up.. but it was along time ago.. and he tried to hard.. but he waited to long.. btu.. ah idk....... its not fair.
some people . its.. its like a cycle. now usually this is what ive seen. no names though .. okay:
boy + girl.. in love
girl screws boy over..
he goes crazy, becomes heartless BITCH.. and big skank.
boy finds new girl.
boy + girl.. "in love"
boy screws girl over (cause he is a heartlessbitchskank)
she goes crazy becomes a heartless bitch and BIG SKANK..
and the cycle continues.
she finds new boy..
theyre "in love" .. she screws him over like old boy did to her before.. he goes crazy.. heartless bitch skank.. ya......
get it? its true right??
i can name soo many ppl that have come out like that..
and i prayed to god id never be likt that. but its starting too........ look like it ...... how could i be like that with him?????? ......... :(
yeah a boy hurt me before. he broke my heart..
so he (an old boy) screwed me over..
drove me crazy..
and yaa i feel like im starting to be that whole heartlessbitch .. MINUS the skank part because i am in NO way a skank. but that heartless bitch. ....... and with the new boy. not new.. but not the one that screwed me over.. actually he DID screw me over. kidna.. but thats a diff story. but why. all because i was trying to make myself feel better about "US" i was trying toget away.. i thought maybe we just werent meant to be together so i tried SO hard to ignorehim, be mean, not see him, bitch at him, . just........ GOD. WHY.. and now.. he probably doesnt even give a fuck about us anymore. i hurt him so bad and ive always told myself i would never hurt the one i loved..... how could i act like that with him? ...i dont understand myself. this is so freaking long and i know i keep repeating the same thing but i just DONT understand. and if he really loves me.. where the hell did he get a new gf from..? SEE.. now its like the "cycle" continues.. as if i screwed him over.. and hes gone crazy (i think he has :( and now hes becoming some heartless bitch SKANK.. cause hes with a SKANK and he just wants her for who knows what EXCEPT hes NOT like that.. but i guess now he is because i hurt him and he just doesnt give a fuck anymore. well fuck this he broke my heart too. just........... god, where does it end.
for the past month. i was so proud of myself. now that i look back.. how could i be proud of how iw as acting? .. when all he was doing was trying.... or maybe im giving him too much credit? ya he fucked up.. but it was along time ago.. and he tried to hard.. but he waited to long.. btu.. ah idk....... its not fair.
some people . its.. its like a cycle. now usually this is what ive seen. no names though .. okay:
boy + girl.. in love
girl screws boy over..
he goes crazy, becomes heartless BITCH.. and big skank.
boy finds new girl.
boy + girl.. "in love"
boy screws girl over (cause he is a heartlessbitchskank)
she goes crazy becomes a heartless bitch and BIG SKANK..
and the cycle continues.
she finds new boy..
theyre "in love" .. she screws him over like old boy did to her before.. he goes crazy.. heartless bitch skank.. ya......
get it? its true right??
i can name soo many ppl that have come out like that..
and i prayed to god id never be likt that. but its starting too........ look like it ...... how could i be like that with him?????? ......... :(
yeah a boy hurt me before. he broke my heart..
so he (an old boy) screwed me over..
drove me crazy..
and yaa i feel like im starting to be that whole heartlessbitch .. MINUS the skank part because i am in NO way a skank. but that heartless bitch. ....... and with the new boy. not new.. but not the one that screwed me over.. actually he DID screw me over. kidna.. but thats a diff story. but why. all because i was trying to make myself feel better about "US" i was trying toget away.. i thought maybe we just werent meant to be together so i tried SO hard to ignorehim, be mean, not see him, bitch at him, . just........ GOD. WHY.. and now.. he probably doesnt even give a fuck about us anymore. i hurt him so bad and ive always told myself i would never hurt the one i loved..... how could i act like that with him? ...i dont understand myself. this is so freaking long and i know i keep repeating the same thing but i just DONT understand. and if he really loves me.. where the hell did he get a new gf from..? SEE.. now its like the "cycle" continues.. as if i screwed him over.. and hes gone crazy (i think he has :( and now hes becoming some heartless bitch SKANK.. cause hes with a SKANK and he just wants her for who knows what EXCEPT hes NOT like that.. but i guess now he is because i hurt him and he just doesnt give a fuck anymore. well fuck this he broke my heart too. just........... god, where does it end.