the loud shreaks of silence...
I went to the gas station today...I heard shreaks of silence that deafened my ears to a disturbing numbness. I saw my past and present dreams right in front of me. I havent interacted with my dreams in about 2 weeks now. It is slowly eating me out to nothing at all. I got no merry christmas when I was alone...I got no happy new years when I was alone...sure I may have had someone near me...but they knew I was alone...they knew what I was thinking and feeling without a word spoken. I thought today would be diffrent...I thought today would have broken this embargo to my heart...let the whispers that my heart reaches out for play with my eardrums...but nothing played with them...it was just a stone cold face I had...with a smile of sympathy I got from someone other then the person I wanted that smile from. I am still missing you more everyday...as it seems you are not when everytime I see you...you are on the phone smiling with the smile I use to bring you. The only good thing about this is I know your smile is fake...I know your dream of Cali is fake...I know you are fake...you are just running from your problems to some Asshole in California that wont be faithful...as he wasnt before...Well I am sorry you brushed my warnings off...I am sorry that everytime I warned you...I was right for doing so...I am sorry that you will be hurt more then ever over there...and I wont be there for you to save you this time...But this was your decision...this was your blinded mistake...I am dead to you, as you make me invisible to your precious eyes...
Your past dream....
Your past dream....