"sigh"
I feel like crap, but maybe I'll be OK. I am so torn...still. I love Gene, I really do, but he treats me like garbage. I mean I had a GREAT time in NY yesterday...but other things are bothering me. Tearing things...things that just break my heart and make me want to live in a hole somewhere. I'm about ready to give up on him. He thinks everything is fine...but it's not. He thinks we're going to be able to stay together...but we're not. I absolutely hate that girl...and he doesn't care that is makes me crazy. I want him to WANT to hang out with me...but he never wants me around. I love him...and he hates me...I'm about ready to give up on him. But I think I'll be OK.