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Sometimes I wish I could start all over. Go back to the beginning and change everything around so that its all perfect. I would hold everything together before it all has a chance to fall apart. I would make everything the way it is supposed to be. But I cant, and I'll never have that chance. But I do want to say this; I dont give a shit what
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I know, there was no excuse for not trying to see you for a little bit on your birthday. Im tired of making excuses for myself. I know your probably hearing it from everybody that you should stop talking to me or they're all saying 'i told you so'. Like i said i dont give a shit what they say anymore, but i do care of what my couple of friends think. I dont want you to be pissed off at me and i dont want you to forget about me, but the truth is, i really dont think you understand and i dont think you'd be able to. Its not your fault, i just always act like this and im telling you now as i told you in the past, i really dont think im going to or even can change. I dont want to be a bad friend, but i guess when i take a step back and look at it from other peoples shoes, i am. And im sorry. I really wish i didnt always act like this and drive everyone away but i cant help it anymore. I really dont know what to say, i mean i guess you've heard it all before from me anyway. I guess its all up to you if you want to still be my friend. I want you to, and like i said, i really do care about the friends that i have, and your a really great one and i just dont want to lose another friend like that. But its up to you.
~ryan
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