[Text/Locked/Private - Winry's personal journal]
I made it to Dublith. It seems a little different than the Dublith Mr. Greed lives in, but it's a different section of town. I wonder, if I went looking, if I could find the Devil's Nest? Maybe I don't want to. It's hard being around people, even though I didn't tell Al that. I don't want him to worry!
Mr. and Mrs. Curtis are packing to go to Central City. They said they'd travel with me as far as they could but they want to try to reach Mr. - no, Colonel Mustang and give him the information Al asked me to pass on. Then they're going back to Briggs Mountains. I don't know why they both laughed at the idea of going there.
I've been working on my communication device. I'm not sure why the connection is so full of static lately. It's really annoying, especially when I want to get in contact with anyone. I know something's going on. It has to be another virus, if Mr. Hohenheim and Miss Eris are cats and Kanji thinks Naoto's dead. And I think Mr. Crocker was changed into a little boy.
I don't know what to think about Envy getting married, though. That's just creepy.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Earlier this year, I talk to Miss Eris about what it would take to bring someone back from the dead. I know it would take a sacrifice, one life or one soul for another, but I guess it'd be better than what happened with Ed and Al when they tried to bring their mom back. I asked Miss Eris if it would hurt and she said 'no', but I'm not sure I can believe her.
But if I could.
I think about Ling, and how his people need him. Could I trade myself to get the homunculus out of his body? Or could I get Mr. Hughes back, so Elicia could have her father back? And Auntie Trisha. If I traded my soul for hers. Ed and Al, Mr. Hohenheim, they all need her. Or even Mello. I know how many people miss Mello. And Rue didn't deserve to die, either.
Then I think, what if they don't want to come back? Why should I be the one to make that decision? I don't know if there's an afterlife, but as much as I miss Mom and Dad, if they're happy where they are, why would I want them to come back to such a life of misery?
I want to help. I really do, but I don't know what kind of help I can offer. Sometimes, it seems like, no matter what I try to do, I'm making things worse. I want to change that.
I need to figure out how to do that, though. I'm just not sure I'm doing anyone any good here, maybe not even myself.
That's Mrs. Curtis. I'd better go.
Mr. and Mrs. Curtis are packing to go to Central City. They said they'd travel with me as far as they could but they want to try to reach Mr. - no, Colonel Mustang and give him the information Al asked me to pass on. Then they're going back to Briggs Mountains. I don't know why they both laughed at the idea of going there.
I've been working on my communication device. I'm not sure why the connection is so full of static lately. It's really annoying, especially when I want to get in contact with anyone. I know something's going on. It has to be another virus, if Mr. Hohenheim and Miss Eris are cats and Kanji thinks Naoto's dead. And I think Mr. Crocker was changed into a little boy.
I don't know what to think about Envy getting married, though. That's just creepy.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Earlier this year, I talk to Miss Eris about what it would take to bring someone back from the dead. I know it would take a sacrifice, one life or one soul for another, but I guess it'd be better than what happened with Ed and Al when they tried to bring their mom back. I asked Miss Eris if it would hurt and she said 'no', but I'm not sure I can believe her.
But if I could.
I think about Ling, and how his people need him. Could I trade myself to get the homunculus out of his body? Or could I get Mr. Hughes back, so Elicia could have her father back? And Auntie Trisha. If I traded my soul for hers. Ed and Al, Mr. Hohenheim, they all need her. Or even Mello. I know how many people miss Mello. And Rue didn't deserve to die, either.
Then I think, what if they don't want to come back? Why should I be the one to make that decision? I don't know if there's an afterlife, but as much as I miss Mom and Dad, if they're happy where they are, why would I want them to come back to such a life of misery?
I want to help. I really do, but I don't know what kind of help I can offer. Sometimes, it seems like, no matter what I try to do, I'm making things worse. I want to change that.
I need to figure out how to do that, though. I'm just not sure I'm doing anyone any good here, maybe not even myself.
That's Mrs. Curtis. I'd better go.