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[handmaid]

I just spent a fucking half hour in front of the toilet, puking up my dinner. Sweaty, pale, and in my underwear, heaving and gagging myself to get the rest of it out of my stomach. It started with these terrible cramps that feel like they're in my lungs, but clearly it's a stomach thing. I spat up something on my own at first, and I felt a little better, so I decided to get teh rest out of my system. i went until I couldn't gag myself anymore. This is not about body image. This is about feeling like my intestines are eating me alive.

Fuck I look like such a drama queen.