Dec 06, 2003 13:14
So yea, last night......wicked drunk...plastered....hammered....but that's not the story....last night was the second night in a week where I was (see above) and started to cry..balling is a better word.....wedneday night i dont remember what happened but i ended up in my neighbor dawn and christina's room and started crying......last night went to a surprise party for a girl i never hang out with but have class with and talked to people id never met before for more than a minute....so that was really nice, everyone was cool.....later that night i stumble into my room and somehow melissa is there...i dont remember how we got there...and so yea i start weeping like a fucking baby again.....and i go downstairs to the guys room on the 1st floor and im crying there too....in front of everybody, i dont know why! it might be unresolved pain from childhood till present but why can it only come out drunk?.....it's really fucked up...and embarrasing.....i'm gonna stop drinking forever..........until I'm 21.