Setting myself up for disappointment...
I dont know if all these things that are happening or good or bad. Lets start with class. BLACKBOARD sucks my ass. Its down and they dont know how long its going to be down. My ESC teacher told me that they fired the guy that does blackboard at CMU today..soo it might be a while. Well she didnt keep a record of her grades...except for on Blackboard...soo now we all have perfect scores again...BUT now I have to take this test I just missed that I was going to drop. Im basically fucked...and I dont know how bad its going to hurt my grade or not. Im not sure what I think about it....To add to that all of my assignments are on blackboard cuz Im lazy and don't write them down....sooo Im goign to be hating myself this week and weekend. .
I talked to Derek last night after waiting all day and telling myself I wasnt going to call him. Well I did...it was eating at me not knowing what I was going to do this weekend and what not. He said he didnt get my msg and thats why he didnt call me back...but I dno. Anywayz, I am pretty sure that show is cancelled and thats why i called him. I told him that it was cancelled and he was like well what does that mean..I told him I didnt know...and he waslike well are you still going to come see me...and I was like I dno, do you want me to...and he was like yea I really do. WTF! lol. Then I tried to let him go but he was like well what did you do today and stuff....and then when I finally did let him go I was like Ill ttyl..and of course he goes I LOVE YOU... It all relieves me so much but at the same time it drives me even more insane. Why is he acting like all of this and stuff if he is the one that wants the break...and then on top of that should I hangout with him...I dont even know anymore.