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I was happy until I read tuesdays with morrie and thought about thanksgiving...
i was reading the 20 pages we had to and they had to deal with family
how you really need a loving family to live ect ect
then evan brought up thanksgiving
thats a sore subject for me
i dont have a great big family to get together with
i dont really even have a happy one
i know its a lot worse for other people i just need to vent
my mom is coming to my dads house for thanksgiving dinner and my brother will be here too
i havent seen my mom in a month
we arent getting along
and i dont want it to be like this before i leave for college
it kills me to know shes depressed and sick.. again..
my dad and i have a hard time talking to eachother and it sucks because i know he loves me and i love him but it seems so awkward at times
i love my brother but hes in boston and im all the way down here dealing with family by myself
'the fact is, there is no foundation, no secure ground, upon which people may stand today if it isnt the family. if you dont have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from family, you dont have much at all. love is so supremely important.'
i know my parents love me dont get me wrong
but saying it all the time doesnt do half as much as showing it would do
from both parts of the relationship. ive tried calling my mom.. ive made offers. i do things around the house for my dad and i get him food and i make him less stressed from when he gets home from work.
dad compensates
mom is a mess right now
i want to talk to my dad more
and i want to go to my moms house and try
because i dont want it to be like this til i never live with my parents again
i want to remember this time as a happy time when we laughed together and it was okay
its just sad around thanksgiving because i get invited to everyone elses family dinner
evans family is amazing
alexs family is so happy
seans family is happy
courtneys family is a mess in a good way
and i know everyones family cant be like that but its just this time of year that sucks balls
you know
and i know i have it better off than some
but i can still be upset over it for the time being
im ok
i got attacked by two dogs tonight with alex
hes my hero
i was reading the 20 pages we had to and they had to deal with family
how you really need a loving family to live ect ect
then evan brought up thanksgiving
thats a sore subject for me
i dont have a great big family to get together with
i dont really even have a happy one
i know its a lot worse for other people i just need to vent
my mom is coming to my dads house for thanksgiving dinner and my brother will be here too
i havent seen my mom in a month
we arent getting along
and i dont want it to be like this before i leave for college
it kills me to know shes depressed and sick.. again..
my dad and i have a hard time talking to eachother and it sucks because i know he loves me and i love him but it seems so awkward at times
i love my brother but hes in boston and im all the way down here dealing with family by myself
'the fact is, there is no foundation, no secure ground, upon which people may stand today if it isnt the family. if you dont have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from family, you dont have much at all. love is so supremely important.'
i know my parents love me dont get me wrong
but saying it all the time doesnt do half as much as showing it would do
from both parts of the relationship. ive tried calling my mom.. ive made offers. i do things around the house for my dad and i get him food and i make him less stressed from when he gets home from work.
dad compensates
mom is a mess right now
i want to talk to my dad more
and i want to go to my moms house and try
because i dont want it to be like this til i never live with my parents again
i want to remember this time as a happy time when we laughed together and it was okay
its just sad around thanksgiving because i get invited to everyone elses family dinner
evans family is amazing
alexs family is so happy
seans family is happy
courtneys family is a mess in a good way
and i know everyones family cant be like that but its just this time of year that sucks balls
you know
and i know i have it better off than some
but i can still be upset over it for the time being
im ok
i got attacked by two dogs tonight with alex
hes my hero