Yeah that's pretty much one of the things I was saying. I always thought it was weird that likes/dislikes/behaviours indicated 'why' someone was a particular sex. Like when asked to justify why they were male or female it's 'I like mens cloths' or 'I like having a penis' or 'I like wearing makeup.' Stuff like that. Which was just societal stuff, it's not like if you were born in the forest you'd have a natural desire for makeup and start making lipstick out of bugs and flowers and shit. And since I have ABSOLUTELY NO WAY TO TELL WHAT MY GENDER IS ASIDE FROM BEHAVIOURS AND SOCIAL NORMS I WAS RAISED WITH, I think about what has influenced me or what could have potentially influenced me.
Those things and the 'girl attention' thing could definitely be things that could have caused stuff. Maybe they're the sole cause of everything. Maybe not at all or just a little bit, I probably won't figure it out. All I know is that I'm more aware of it now and am not as afraid to admit things I'm not so proud about that could cause me to do certain things. Regardless, even though I liked how I looked back then aesthetically, I think how I look and present myself now works better with who I am and my way of life so it kind of worked out. [or at least some of it did!]
Those things and the 'girl attention' thing could definitely be things that could have caused stuff. Maybe they're the sole cause of everything. Maybe not at all or just a little bit, I probably won't figure it out. All I know is that I'm more aware of it now and am not as afraid to admit things I'm not so proud about that could cause me to do certain things. Regardless, even though I liked how I looked back then aesthetically, I think how I look and present myself now works better with who I am and my way of life so it kind of worked out. [or at least some of it did!]
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