Title: Chained [chapter 6] Last Chapter
Author: hanashiaru
Pairing: who else? YamaJima & ChiiTaro always
Genre: Angst - Fluff? Romance. AU
Rating: PG
Warning: Horrible English, TYPOS. Well, MPREG XDD
Summary: Without knowing that his child was safe five years ago, he comes back
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Chapter 4 |
Chapter 5 Ryutaro reflectly got up of his bed the moment his ears caught a loud voice from the main door. It was banged for the uncountable times, realizing his spouse wasn’t near him make his feet walk faster to the ordinate where the voice came. What was happening, panicity striked his heart continously and.. there, he saw his spouse already put his fingers on the knob.
“Yuuri.”
Eyes were rapidly striked by a confusion, making Yuuri could only shook his head. “I don’t know.”
“Open it.”
Ryutaro watched intensly as the door was opened, revealing his boy’s figure who was stunning in front of the opened door. The boy’s face was full of indeterminancy as the boy’s look was down continously. Silence was felt, Yuuri and Ryutaro waited intensely for the boy’s next rection.
Before Yuuri parted his lips to speak up, the boy immediately flung his body to Yuuri’s arms the moment when Yuuri squatted down.
“Kazu. Kazu, what’s wrong?” Yuuri wrapped his hands around the small body, trying a little to push Kazu away. But, feeling a tight hug that the boy made, Yuuri couldn’t help but hugged the boy back.
The boy shook his head, clinging desperately to his mother’s arm.
Ryutaro just ruffled the boy’s hair before his eyes were gazing at the two existences standing in front of him.
“You’re done.” Ryutaro spoke up, unconsciously turned his gaze into a glare. “You can go now.”
“Ryutaro.” Yuto’s ears were aroused from the unwanted words that he heard from him.
“I know what had happened. I know this will be happened if I let this boy alone in your arms.” Ryutaro stepped backwards. “Kazu, you don’t have to hide it. You already know everything, don’t you?”
Kazu just froze his own body in Yuuri’s embrace, not wanting to do or say anything.
“Ryutaro, please.” Ryosuke called with his pleading eyes. “Give my son back. Please, Ryutaro.”
“He’s not your son.”
“What the hell with those words?!” Ryosuke grabbed the younger’s collar and pulled it to face him, “You know he’s mine, he shares the blood with mine!”
“Blood is nothing, Yama-chan.” Ryutaro laughed, piercing his gaze to the older one, “Where’s your role during these five years?”
“You stole him from me!”
“You even didn’t know he was alive! And I ask you, where’s your role during these five years?! See? You did nothing, Yama-chan.”
“Stop being selfish and pretending like I’m the one who was ignoring my son! I was blind for five years to know the fact of all of this because there’s no one who told me about this!” He cried out of lungs, his grab was tightened as he almost choked out.
“I’m the one who has been taking care of him.”
“But you don’t know how my feeling was! I’m his mother!”
“Stop it, Ryosuke.” Yuto patted his boyfriend’s back and pulled Ryosuke back softly. “It’s not good for Kazu to hear it all.”
Ryosuke bit his lips tightly as his feet heavily stepped backward, his eyes were still gazing at the little figure that was now still sinking his body into Yuuri’s embrace. Sure, Ryosuke wasn’t blaming Kazu for behaving that way. The boy only five years old kid afterall. Kazu even didn’t say anything the moment Ryosuke revealed the fact to the little boy, the words those came out from Kazu’s lips just.. he wanted to go home.
Yuuri also couldn’t say anything, he didn’t know how to make the condition better so he just ended up stroked the little boy’s frame continously.
“Kazu..” Ryosuke called very softly. He squatted down and lifted his hand up to carress the boy’s back, wanting an attention. “Kazu... can you talk to me?”
The boy didn’t move.
“Kazu, please...”
“He’s still confused, Ryo-chan.” Yuuri spoke up, smiling bitterly to his friend. “He needs some time.”
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“Everything is on Kazu’s hand itself.” Yuuri shrugged his shoulder, staring at the tall guy beside him, “I don’t know, Yuto. Really. I can’t promise you to give your son back.”
Yuto took a deep breathe, “You said that you wanna reach your own carrer if you-“
“Look at me.” Yuuri said straightly, “I’m pregnant now, do you forget about it? I can’t go back anymore, this is already my path.”
Yuto went silent and felt depressed as he didn’t catch the suit words to be a reply.
“Yuto, I’m sorry for making your child didn’t feel comfortable for these two years. I know I was wrong but you should know I love him so much. I can’t believe there’s such a kid like him. He’s so mature and every word that he told was always warming.” And Yuuri smiled at his friend so widely, “Just thank you for giving me a great child like him, Yuto.”
Yuto inhaled a breathe, realizing that he had been spending this five years yet he didn’t really know his boy’s characters at all.
“I’m the one who should say thank you, Yuuri. However, I don’t know the complicated situation if you didn’t wanna take care of him..”
“I know. I thought about it too, you’ll be confused with your material thing and emotional case with your child if he was on your care. I love the baby too, just like Ryutaro, I loved him at the moment I saw his fragile figure... the baby smiled at me and his little fingers tried to reach me when I carried him for the first time. I was immediately fallen in love with him..”
Yuto’s eyes softened, knowing those words were absolutely true.
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He palmed his puffy cheeks with his little hands.
No, no, he didn’t wanna cry. Taking a deep breathe, he leaned his back against the wall as he felt suffocated by unwanted situation around him. It was so noisy, yet it disturbed him so much. School time was over, and suddenly he didn’t wanna come back to his house. His mind just wanted to get some rest and he wasn’t sure that house was a right place for it.
So tell him, why couldn’t he get a normal life just like his friends experienced.
Just a normal family.. just..
... well, he couldn’t think anymore.
He jumped off the bench and began to move his feet forward. But suddenly a view in front of him made him blink his eyes, realizing there was someone coincidentally sat on another bench which was not too far from his ordinate right now.
Ryosuke Yamada.
The little boy just gulped as his mind was thinking hard what kind of thing he should do. He could run, he could pretend that he wasn’t here and ran off this place. Strangely, he didn’t want to.
He was a good boy afterall.
And his heart fell the moment he realized that Ryosuke lifted his hand to wipe his own cheek, it was so clear that Kazu knew Ryosuke was almost crying. And the boy wasn’t that stupid for not knowing the hidden reason of it, the fact that just made Kazu feel.. how cruel he was.
He slowly stepped forward to Ryosuke’s direction.
One more step, Kazu smiled as he saw Ryosuke’s head was raised up due to the steps sound.
Kazu tiptoed and soon the little fingers of the boy had already rested on Ryosuke’s cheek to wipe the tears away before Ryosuke could part his lips to say something. Ryosuke just smiled back, realizing that he already lost for words. The soft touch of the little boy was so indescribable and it gave him a strong pleasure... because it was Kazu who touched him first.
“Can I say thank you to you?” the boy asked, tilting his head to the side.
“What is it?”
The boy took a hold on Ryosuke’s hands before smiling wider, “Thank you for not throwing me.”
Ryosuke chuckled by the words, he leaned closer and pressed their foreheads together, “I’ve told you that you’re not being thrown.”
Kazu was still smiling and nodded his head softly, “I’m sorry for yesterday, I didnt know how to react when you told me... that...”
“I know, Kazu..”
“But you’ve suffered enough..”
Ryosuke smiled bitterly, grabbing the boy’s waist and pulled him fully to his lap. “Yes. I’ve suffered enough because you and Yuto weren’t there for me. I was all alone. That’s why you should know how precious you two for me, Kazu..”
“Mama..” Kazu spoke up softly, smiling softly when he saw Ryosuke’s eyes widened by the call. “Mama is precious for Kazu too, so does Papa Yuto. But... Mama Yuuri’s sacriface is so big for Kazu, Papa Ryutaro too. Kazu can’t decide.. Kazu...”
“It’s enough, Kazu.” Ryosuke wrapped his arms around the boy’s frame, hugging his little boy from behind ever so tightly. “You can still live with Yuuri and Ryutaro now, just please, don’t refuse if I wanna see you.”
“You’ll be hurt..” Kazu whispered weakly, “If I were you, I’ll be hurt. Your only son doesn’t wanna live with you.”
“Kazu..”
“I don’t know..” Kazu shook his head, his eyes were closed desperately, “I just wished God never gave me a life.”
“Kazu!”
“Kazu is just being a troublesome to everyone!” he yelled out, still with his closed eyes as if he was restraining his tears. “If you didn’t have me at that time, maybe... maybe.. everything will turn well. Not only you, but Mama Yuuri and Papa Ryutaro’s life will be going smoothly.. I just..”
Ryosuke pushed his boy softly from his lap and placed him to sit on his left side, he put his index finger over Kazu’s lips for stopping his talk. “I don’t wanna hear those words again. It sounds so weak. You’re Kazu, and Kazu whom I know is the person who never say such the words..”
Kazu could only blink in a second later, he wiped his eyes before the tears could fall down and quickly nodded his head. “I’m sorry.”
“No need to say sorry, my dear..” Ryosuke said, carressing the boy’s cheek, “It’s okay.”
“Mama, I love you. I love you.. and I’m sorry for everything, I’m sorry.”
Ryosuke’s heart sank right at the moment his little boy was gazing into his eyes with his pleading look. It was so sad for looking the little boy asked a forgiveness for the thing that he didn’t do. It was Ryosuke’s line afterall, but Ryosuke was just too weak for speaking up, he just nodded and continously carressed the soft cheek of his son and kissed it ever so softly.
“Mama..”
“Call me Mama, again and again. I love you, my son..”
~000~
“Mama, Mama. Let me feel it!” Kazu shouted excitedly as he brough his right hand to Yuuri’s tummy and soon he giggled with the indescribable feeling from it, “Mama, he tossed with me!”
Yuuri exchanged a look with Ryosuke and they both giggled too at the same time.
“He’s nice to me.” Kazu kept talking, an amusement smile was still placed on his lips. “Aah. I’m sure he is a boy. He’s strong. Mama, keep your health!”
Ryosuke pulled the boy onto his lap, “Don’t do it too often, Kazu. Let Mama Yuuri be free for awhile, he’s tired.”
“Okay. I’m sorry.” Kazu grinned, turning his head to Ryosuke’s side and poked his nose, “Now I can imagine when I was inside you, Mama!”
Ryosuke’s face turned red, making Yuuri laughed immediately. Meanwhile Kazu was still grinning while looking at them continously.
“They’re late, anyway.” Yuuri sighed, looking at the remained door that was still now showing any sign to be opened. “Man.. they’re not shopping like girls, right? It’s too long.”
Shrugging his shoulders, Ryosuke just also gazed at the door and realized the words were true. He played with the boy’s fingers continously, “Nah, just let it be.”
No need a long time, coincidentally the door was opened revaling Yuto and Ryutaro with an innocent grin that was plastered on their faces. They walked into the room, and Kazu, with his excitement as always, approached them as he welcomed Yuto and Ryutaro with his big smile.
“Mamas are waiting for you!”
Both Yuuri and Ryosuke immediately turned their heads together to the opposite side.
“Mama don’t be shy!”
Yuto shook his head in disbelief, and Ryutaro walked closer to the boy and gave him a pack of-
“Present! Thank you!”
The boy grabbed the gift that was just given and ran off the living room withing by five seconds, leaving the couples to look at each other eyes straightly.
“You okay?” Ryutaro asked his spouse softly, kissing Yuuri’s forehead as he sat beside him.
“I’m alright.” Yuuri nodded and smiled at his husband’s touch, “Don’t worry too much.”
Ryosuke just shrugged his shoulder as he dragged Yuto out of the living room, walking into their own room. Yes, they own room. They’ve moved already since Yuto and Ryutaro bought a bigger house for the continuation of ther living. Two families lived together in the same house wasn’t a bad thing afterall, Kazu needed them all in the end.
Because the choice would never be choosen.
“Hey.” Yuto encircled Ryosuke’s waist, managing to hug him from behind as Yuto gave a small kiss on his neck. “What are you feeling right now?”
Correction, one of the couples hadn’t made a family yet.
Ryosuke just closed his eyes, interwined his hands to Yuto’s, enjoying the usual comfortable warmth that always Yuto gave, “Tomorrow is our wedding afterall.”
Yuto loosened the hug and slowly turned Ryosuke’s body to face him, and soon a gentle smile that was always Yuto loved since forever was painted on Ryosuke’s face as the night wind blew Ryosuke’s hair softly and it made the guy’s appareance looked beautiful more than ever, making Yuto’s heart fell for Ryosuke for the uncountable times.
“I feel happy.” Ryosuke answered, moving his hands around Yuto’s neck as he grinned widely, “I feel so happy, Yuto..”
Yuto smiled, stroking the puffy cheeks lovingly, “Me too, Ryosuke. I’ve been waiting the day since forever.”
Ryosuke laughed in a happy tone, “I can’t believe the day will happen too, Yuto.. I never expected I’ll come back to you. I’m just..” Ryosuke rasped, sinking his head to the younger’s shoulder for hiding the blush that was now invading his cheeks as Yuto kept carressing his cheeks with a gentle smile.
“Ryosuke..”
“.. five years ago I went off without any hope for you, for our child that I thought he has gone. I lost my hope and I didn’t know what should I do.. I couldn’t even count how many I cried everyday and it took a long time for me to be able for smiling. My life was aimlessly... my life was just a waste. I just can’t believe that today I’m standing here, being hugged by you and our son is still here... healthy, cutely, smartly..” Ryosuke smiled happily as he tried not to cry again, “.. I’m so happy. I’m so happy..”
“I feel happy too, Ryosuke. I feel the same. I love you, I love you.” Yuto sneered and pushed his boyfriend from his embrace softly, giving a many kisses to the face.
He found himself almost teared up as Yuto shifted closer and meeting their own lips, longer and more passionate as he encircled his boyfriend’s neck for deepening the kiss, still with a happy smile engraved on their faces.
And they knew that a new sheet of life would be starting from now on.
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The boy grinned in amusement with a paper that was written ’Happy Wedding!’ on his grip. Passing the people who were working for the event of tomorrow, he ran fastly into the living room whereas his parents sat before.
“Papa! Mama! Don’t you think they will be happy if I give them this greeting-“
The boy’s words and and ran were stopped by the scenery in front of him. Kazu immediately turned his head away for avoiding Yuuri and Ryutaro who were now doing something forbidden to be caught by his eyes.
“Adults nowadays..”
Kazu hissed and shook his head, walking away from the room and climbed the stairs to see his other parents.
“Dear, Mama and Papa~ Kazu has a gi-“
For the second time he had to turn his head away and stepped backward by the almost twin scenery that he had seen before.
And he whispered something unhearable.
“Aah.. I hope my little brother will be born faster so that he could accompany me in the situation like this."
OWARI
Graaawr, finally~
My mid-term test is coming near so I should finish this immediately. Sorry if it's short or blahblahblah I hope you understand my condition *whacked* and no epilogue, my mind is blocked already =))
Thank you for reading till the end and... mind to give you what's on your mind? D: