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[hanasanai_de]

I lost this feeling while writing.
This one important feeling that acutally represents feelings/ emotions / happenings.
Everything just sounds so empty and that makes me sad.
I write down words on a computer because as soon as I grab a pen my heart / soul feels lost.
I am swollowing feelings like glasses of wine but my hands won't spit them out;
and it gives me the strange feeling that I forgot how to understand myself / my actions.

How do I know what I think until I see what I say?
E. M. Forster