Yearning for a different life...but who is it to blame for all these?
Yes I woke up this morning feel like I abso-fucking-lutely hate my life! I dunno y esp when I seem to happy to many out there, I've got a comfortable life, I've got the positive vibe and I'm having so much fun partying like crazy..but mabbe the real reason is no one can even be completely satisfied n happy abt their lives. There are always other things we wished we'd in our lives, agree?
I feel really deprived becos of my darn car. I can't afford to do anything extra, buy anything fanciful, or even go on a trip becos of this huge financial burden that I have. From the outside it looks like an asset to everybody, but for me it's a real big liability. Not only do I have to pay the monthly installment, I still have to fork out money for the running cost. No one is to blame for all these, I can't blame my mom for making me buy the car, neither can I blame myself for buying it...becos the car is already there sitting at my front porch.
I've been feeling really tired lately, and no matter how much I dread work or how much I wished I could jsut go to the doc's to get an MC, I still end up going to work every morning. Some say I'm so tired I'm close to being burnt out and I ought to go on a break to relax and chill. I wished..but I really can't afford the time and money. My year-end evaluation is coming up and that requires us to film 3 of our kids during our session. I'm freaking stressed abt it becos I know I'm so gonna screw it up. But at this moment I can't be bothered anymore, I'm so tired with everything I can't even bring myself to put in the least bit of effort, even though my performance does affect my pay increment. Haiz..somehow I wished I could just quit now n start a new job..I know it sounds like a real avoidance for the evaluation but man I just dread it so much! Sigh, so this busy month means I can't take time off for anything, even if I consider to do it after my evaluation, I wouldn't be able to afford any trips, since I'm so freaking poor. :( I can't even afford a new fone...arghhh. Took my sis to the mobile store yest cos she needs to upgrade her plan using my line, and she easily spent 300 bucks on a freaking new fone, yet I've to contemplate on spending. Arghhh hate it, when will I be able to spend the kind of money I want to?
Anyway, I ended up not going to butterfactory last nite, becos I reckoned I'd b wasting money. I spent $18 to alter my dress for the wedding and bought a pair of golden heels that cost me $35..I would say it's a good deal cos the whole outfit for the wedding didnt cos me more than a 100. But still I felt so bad that I've spent to much this mth, which is y I decided to stay home n rest. There are so many things on my 'I want' list but I just feel so poor I can't afford anything. Y oh Y?
Other than all these rubbish that's been going thru my head, I'm still quite undecided abt buying a photo printer. I saw this HP photosmart 245 printer selling at 70 bucks online. It's an old model but it's brand new, the buyer said she bought it at $250 but letting it go at $70. I'm so tempted to get it so I can print my own photos, even though many would say it's a waste of money to get a darn photo printer. Sigh..what should I do? Can someone give me an answer?
I feel really deprived becos of my darn car. I can't afford to do anything extra, buy anything fanciful, or even go on a trip becos of this huge financial burden that I have. From the outside it looks like an asset to everybody, but for me it's a real big liability. Not only do I have to pay the monthly installment, I still have to fork out money for the running cost. No one is to blame for all these, I can't blame my mom for making me buy the car, neither can I blame myself for buying it...becos the car is already there sitting at my front porch.
I've been feeling really tired lately, and no matter how much I dread work or how much I wished I could jsut go to the doc's to get an MC, I still end up going to work every morning. Some say I'm so tired I'm close to being burnt out and I ought to go on a break to relax and chill. I wished..but I really can't afford the time and money. My year-end evaluation is coming up and that requires us to film 3 of our kids during our session. I'm freaking stressed abt it becos I know I'm so gonna screw it up. But at this moment I can't be bothered anymore, I'm so tired with everything I can't even bring myself to put in the least bit of effort, even though my performance does affect my pay increment. Haiz..somehow I wished I could just quit now n start a new job..I know it sounds like a real avoidance for the evaluation but man I just dread it so much! Sigh, so this busy month means I can't take time off for anything, even if I consider to do it after my evaluation, I wouldn't be able to afford any trips, since I'm so freaking poor. :( I can't even afford a new fone...arghhh. Took my sis to the mobile store yest cos she needs to upgrade her plan using my line, and she easily spent 300 bucks on a freaking new fone, yet I've to contemplate on spending. Arghhh hate it, when will I be able to spend the kind of money I want to?
Anyway, I ended up not going to butterfactory last nite, becos I reckoned I'd b wasting money. I spent $18 to alter my dress for the wedding and bought a pair of golden heels that cost me $35..I would say it's a good deal cos the whole outfit for the wedding didnt cos me more than a 100. But still I felt so bad that I've spent to much this mth, which is y I decided to stay home n rest. There are so many things on my 'I want' list but I just feel so poor I can't afford anything. Y oh Y?
Other than all these rubbish that's been going thru my head, I'm still quite undecided abt buying a photo printer. I saw this HP photosmart 245 printer selling at 70 bucks online. It's an old model but it's brand new, the buyer said she bought it at $250 but letting it go at $70. I'm so tempted to get it so I can print my own photos, even though many would say it's a waste of money to get a darn photo printer. Sigh..what should I do? Can someone give me an answer?