I have been searching for traces of what we were....
If you could dance with me through this rain, then maybe we'll fight again....
Christmas concerts all day today...had to sit through 4 of them. was ok at first, but the novelty wore off after a bit. ah well, got to stare at a certain person (maybe even people??) for a good few hours. Got some uxexpected news...altho i cant say that it actually was unexpected. people have been teling me for ages, i just needed sum1 who really knew to tell. and today was the day i found out. dont actually know what to think anymore. craps.
fucking chav scum been pissing me off again. they really do need to get it into their thick heads that i am not a fucking greebo, goth or whatever. and as for the wrist slashing.....cunts. they have no fucking idea whatsoever. Dirty little mother fuckers.
got home, found an xmas card from my counsellor woman on the table. she very cleverly (is that even a word??) put a big sticker on the back saying "Connexions, young peoples advice...blah blah blah." she might as well just announce to my dad that i have to see some one to sort out the huge mess that is my head. cheers.
not particularly feeling in the christmas spirit right now. call me a scrooge or whatever, but eveyrthing seems to piss me off atm. my dad has been in the worst of moods for ages now. has told me he is never going to iron a single peice of clothing for me again. started going thru all my fucking drawers the other day. i told him not to dare and so he carried on. for fucks sake, he has no fucking right. oh, and he "cant be bothered" with xmas this year. i just dont know what to do. i so wish my mum was here, he would not be like this if she was still alive. fuck this. i just wanna make it right. H xoxox
I just wanna make this right.
Christmas concerts all day today...had to sit through 4 of them. was ok at first, but the novelty wore off after a bit. ah well, got to stare at a certain person (maybe even people??) for a good few hours. Got some uxexpected news...altho i cant say that it actually was unexpected. people have been teling me for ages, i just needed sum1 who really knew to tell. and today was the day i found out. dont actually know what to think anymore. craps.
fucking chav scum been pissing me off again. they really do need to get it into their thick heads that i am not a fucking greebo, goth or whatever. and as for the wrist slashing.....cunts. they have no fucking idea whatsoever. Dirty little mother fuckers.
got home, found an xmas card from my counsellor woman on the table. she very cleverly (is that even a word??) put a big sticker on the back saying "Connexions, young peoples advice...blah blah blah." she might as well just announce to my dad that i have to see some one to sort out the huge mess that is my head. cheers.
not particularly feeling in the christmas spirit right now. call me a scrooge or whatever, but eveyrthing seems to piss me off atm. my dad has been in the worst of moods for ages now. has told me he is never going to iron a single peice of clothing for me again. started going thru all my fucking drawers the other day. i told him not to dare and so he carried on. for fucks sake, he has no fucking right. oh, and he "cant be bothered" with xmas this year. i just dont know what to do. i so wish my mum was here, he would not be like this if she was still alive. fuck this. i just wanna make it right. H xoxox
I just wanna make this right.