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Title : Obsession Won’t Kill You
Pairing(s) : HanChul, Kangteuk, oneside!SiBum, YeWon, Kyumin
Rating : PG~PG-15 PG-R
Genre :AU, chaptered, cross-over (with DBSK)
Disclaimer : Of course I’ll only have them in my dream
Warning : rape, incest, paedophillia, grammar error, unbeta-ed, AU
Summary : Being kept for 4 years, suddenly Heechul found himself in the street with a warm blanket covering him and a map contain everything related to him. So once again his life begin..
A/N : I'm still lacking with third POV and English is not my first language. Feel free and please do point out if I make some mistake.
A/N 2 : I've learn more about posting. And I think I've try to fix it.. But if anyone thinks there's still some mistake, please do tell me so.
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Prologue Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Filler, YeWon Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Filler, Yunjae
Chapter 8 : A new Life
“Can I talk to you for a second?”, Ryeowook’s voice makes him back from his trance. Siwon look at the smaller man and nods. “Follow me.”, the smaller said and they go to the back stage, straight to a small room.
“I’m sorry.”, Siwon said once they have settle down on the chairs, face to face. “I was lost control. It’s inappropriate for me to shout like that.”, he adds. Ryeowook just shook his head.
“Yeah, you just kinda announce to all of them that you’re gay.”, he response. Siwon throws him a faint smile, lowering his head.
“I no longer care.. I guess.”, was the words that come up from Siwon’s mouth after that. He raises his head, want to know the other’s response. Ryeowook’s eyes just widening a little, but his body keeps still on his chair, seems to not shaken up by the news.
‘It’s not the reason why I ask you to follow me.”, he said sighing. Siwon raise one of his shibrows and waiting for the smaller man to continue.
“You see, although we kinda famous and busy right now, Yesung doesn’t have any girlfriend.. or boyfriend.”, the smaller man continue.
“There’s a thing. It happened about 3 years ago, just around him being a college freshman..”, he sigh and clasp his mouth, trying to calm. It seems troubled him as he has a hard time explaining it. “I’ve become friends with Yesung since we’re in junior high. And never, never ever once he disappoint me, or the band, so are we try to do the same for him. All his friends are like that, Yesung is a kind person. But there’s one time, one thing that broke his heart.”
Siwon shift his sitting position more closely to the man, wanting to know. “His girlfriend betrayed him. She ran off with his other friend. And it’s because, Yesung choose to become a singer like his dream.”
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Heechul open his eyes with a wide smile decorating his face. He hopes that it’s not a dream when he sees his oppa laying beside him.
“No, it’s not a dream.”, Yesung taught to himself and his smile go wider if it’s even possible in his current state. He decides to snuggle more to the man and fake a sleep when Hankyung’s body moving.
Hankyung smiles looking at his love’s fake sleep. He knows that Heechul’s already awake, so he ruffling Heechul’s hair (one of the things Heechul detests) and nudging his finger to Heechul’s bare back.
“Yah!”, Heechul pouts after struggling from Hankyung’s touch. “It tickles!”, he exclaim. Hankyung chaste a kiss on Heechul’s lips to make the pout away, and whispering “Good morning, sunshine.” to his love’s ear.
Heechul giggles a bit hearing the whisper, too long since the last time his oppa said that to him. He wraps up his arms around his oppa’s neck, resting his head on his oppa’s broad, warm, and bare chest. Hankyung embrace his love tightly, peck the crown head and placing his left cheek on Heechul’s head.
“It’s like you never left me.”, Heechul said and it makes Hankyung narrowed his eyes with pain. He sighs and try to change the topic.
“Yah, how can you surprise me like that last night?”, he asks caressing Heechul’s hair. Heechul purrs at the sensation, missed it so much.
“Yeah, you know.. It’s not that hard for everyone to figure the message on your card..”, Heechul starts. “They corner me and asking me question over and over again, and at first I didn’t really want to spill it out, but then Yunho-hyung told me that he’ll help me in any way. So, I got myself telling the truth to Yunho-hyung. And you know that Yunho-hyung won’t say no to Jae-hyung, and so does Junsu-hyung. And there’s Kibum and Changmin-hyung.. And Siwon too. Kyu-hyung already figure it out. I bet he’s an evil person in the past because he just smirk so slyly to me everyday now, and like Yunho-hyung, he spit out the truth to Sungmin-hyung. Sungmin-hyung really help me these past weeks. I’m really grateful.”, he adds so fast it rewarded by Hankyung’s soft smile, his favorite!
But the truth, it’s just Changmin who corner him, with Yunho-hyung behind him to make sure that the taller won’t giving the boy a really hard time. And after he confessed, he asks help to Yunho-hyung to make his plan, which is surprising his oppa in the party, become true. He then told everyone honestly and ask Sungmin to help him with his phobia (after a long cry in Leeteuk side). But it’ll be a secret to his oppa. So he just smiling wickedly, trying to catch his oppa’s attention to something other than to find a truth.
“What oppa do when I’m not around?”, he asks cutely. Tilting his head to his right side and a bit pouting his plump lips. It’s so kissable Hankyung have to maintain his heart first when he wants to answer.
“Nothing. But maybe some of them will make you interested enough.”, he answers ruffling Heechul’s hair.
“Yah!”
“Come on, we got a lot thing to do.”, Hankyung said grabing his love off from the bed.
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“You’re kidding me?!”, Heechul shriek with a widening eyes as he look at the scene outside the window’s car. Hankyung just chuckled a bit while keeps conversation with someone, his lawyer, Heechul presumes, talking about something he doesn’t understand.
He huffed and starts to stare at the scene outside the window car. They’re going to the Han’s residence. Heechul can’t think straight, and so does his oppa. His grandfather, his oppa’s father, dislike him so much he couldn’t understand. He too, really scared of him, he was a strict, cold person. His oppa suddenly pats his head like he knows what’s going on in Heechul’s head.
“It’s alright. There’s nothing to worry about. Trust me. We just need to tell something to my father.”, he said with a soothing sound. It just calms Heechul a little. He pouts, lowering his head, and starts to lace and playing with his fingers, ignoring the man who sits behind steering wheel.
Heechul sighs when finally they arrived in front of the main building of Han’s residence. Just for information, Heechul lived far away from the house, away from a nagging grandmother and nosy maids. His oppa just gives him a warm smile and lacing their hands before he grip their hands tightly.
“I’m not going to leave you again. I promise.”, his oppa said and that’s what matter to him. So he beams a smile and nods, full of hope.
They walk across main hall, straight to his grandfather office. With some knocks and permission from the one whom inside, they come in. The room is big, big enough to pack 25 persons in. His grandfather wore a gray suit, just like his hairs. He sits behind his black oak wood desk and just sipped his morning coffee. He seems a bit surprise to his son in this hour, and almost shock to see his grandchild’s there too, lacing his hand to his son and seems so comfortable with that.
“My, my, I didn’t expect to meet you this morning. What brings you two here? I guess it’s important, looking at your facial expression, Geng.”, he said with a hoarse voice like an old man used to be. He moves his body a bit forward, placing his hands and resting his head on his hands. He try to look calm, but he can’t really hide his curiousness that well.
Then Heechul look at his oppa who now narrowing his eyes, his face look confidence, but he still consider the appropriate words that he needs to tell the older man across him. His oppa bring him closer without letting go of his hand until only the desk that bordering him and his oppa with his grandfather.
“I just want to tell you that I quit. I won’t become your puppet anymore.”, he said. His tone straight, no fear in there to make the others doubt his words.
His grandfather raises one of his eyebrows, any expression still hidden on his face. “What are you intending, Geng?”, he asks.
“Just like I said. I’m over with your greed.”
“And why you telling me this now?”, his grandfather asks again. His hands turn into a fist. His oppa sighs before speak again.
“I know I should do this long time ago, but never ever dare to actually do it. But ever since you order me to dump him, I made up my mind.”, his oppa just staring at him while he said that and it makes him really happy.
“Just so you know, sister is going to do the same as me. She’ll divorce her husband and pursue her career.”, he adds. And the weird thing is, his grandfather starts to laugh.
“It’s a best joke I ever heard, Geng! If you do that, what are you going to do from now on, huh?! You’ll be over! You'll be penniless and everyone would turn his back at you! And you have to crawl back to me, begging my mercy!”, the exclamation really make Heechul’s blood boil, but his oppa prevent him to say or do anything. Heechul almost lost his control and doesn’t understand why his oppa still smiling.
“It’s you who are over, father. I just found a way out to return Heechul’s inheritance. Good luck to find my substitute who is pleased to become your apprentice. Because I won’t.”, with that they make their way out, leaving the older man stunned on his desk. But just about his oppa wants to open the door, he remember something.
“Expect my lawyer’s visit in the next morning.”, he said and with that, they’re gone from Han’s residence for good.
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“I don’t understand.”, Heechul said immediately after the car moving slowly on the road. His oppa just smirks and say nothing about it until they’re out from the gate.
“What part do you not understand?”, he said and it makes heechul thinks for a moment.
“Everything.”, it earns a chuckle from the older man but he answers it anyway.
“You do know that your parents leaving you something right.”, it’s not a question, but a statement. So Heechul just nods and wait the older man to continue. “My father used that to spread our company. I hate that I was a part of it, so does my sister. She was being force to marry someone just so father can have a deal with her parents in law. But now it’s over, we’re finally free and your wealth will come back to you.”, he adds but doesn’t dare to look at his lover.
“I don’t care about the money.”, Heechul said with exasperate sighs. And his oppa does the same. “But what oppa gonna do from now on? You said you quit, but how-?” .
His oppa laughs, a bit hard and then smile to him. He caresses Heechul cheek, and when they stop the car because of the traffic light, his oppa pecks his lips. He whispers, “That’s why I want to show you something.”
Heechul must restrain his curiosity as his oppa won’t spill any information regarding that certain ‘something’. He pouts in their way and ignore the man with looking the scene outside. The car stops in front of a two-floors building that looks a bit old with a bit of Mediterranean style. His eyes lit up and he looks at his oppa who now smile brightly to him.
“Let’s go inside.”, he said.
nbsp; The insides of building are almost empty. The first floor has three big rooms with two of them have a huge mirror in three of four side. The other room has a brown medium size desk with a unique chair as a pair with the desk, and two sofas with a black coffee table.
The second floor also has three rooms, but a bit smaller than the first, with a large space in the middle. There a kitchen with still function properly and a bathroom. They all have a good enough sunlight. Heechul stare all the rooms with amazement.
“Oppa..”, his oppa grab his hand and chaste a kiss on it.
“You ask me what I’m gonna do after this, right? Well, the answer is I plan to move here and open a dance studio, teaching children and teenager dance. I’ve my friends to help me with that.”, his oppa starts. He’s a bit hesitating about something, so Heechul push him a bit.
“And?”
“And, Chullie. Oh my God, if I knew you’ll come to me this early, I’ve all preparation ready. Gosh! I already made a plan to do this to become more decent.. more romantic..”
“It’s alright oppa.”
“No, it’s not alright! I can’t do anything good for you! I even chain you and forbide you to step outside just because my egoism! Losing you make me think over everything.. I’m too cruel to bind you to me like this..”, his oppa’s eyes becomes teary and the tears threatening to soak his handsome face. So he do what he could think of, smile and hug the man he loves so much.
nbsp; “It’s no one fault. I love you and you love me too, that’s what matter to me.”, he said and his oppa sobs to his embrace. Well, maybe letting his oppa relieving all his feeling right now is a good thing. And his cry didn’t last long. His oppa laughs nervously as sudden as his cries. He brushes the tears off from his face and grab Heechul’s hand once again.
“So Heechul, athough I’m losing almost everything I own, will you want to move in with me?”, he asks. But Heechul didn’t trust his ears to hear right. Did his oppa want him to become by his side again? There’s only one answer if it’s true..
“Of course oppa. I will love to.”
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The night once again has come, but Siwon just stand nervously in front of Yesung’s apartment building. He pace back and forth, back and forth, doesn’t stop worrying over Yesung’s response if he decides to come in. He bites his thumb’s nail and entwining his shibrows, thinking hard.
“Are you going to come in or are you planning to stand there all night?”, a voice suddenly heard and it makes him jump in surprise. Just a few meters from him, Yesung stood with a blank face and sighs.
“I- I think you don’t have a work today?”, Siwon questions. Yesung shrugged and reply him.
“My friend asks me to fill in his shift.”
“C-can I come in?”, Siwon said a bit stuttering. Yesung just nods and signaling him to follow. They go inside Yesung’s apartment in silent. Yesung make some drink for them while Siwon just sits doing nothing on the floor not too far from the window, his favorite place because Yesung love to sit there.
He jerks his body when Yesung place a hot coffee in front of him. As usual, Yesung sits on the windowsill, seeing the scene outside while sipping his coffee without a word. Siwon stare at his own coffee, blow it slowly and gulp it a bit. No sugar added. It’s just a plain black coffee, as the way Siwon loves it. That means, Yesung remember. It makes Siwon’s heart to pound a little bit faster than before, lightened up his hope.
“I’m sorry.”, Siwon said but the smaller man doesn’t responds. Siwon sighs, lowering his head and once again staring at his own coffee.
“It seems that Wookie said something, hm?”, Yesung state without turning his head away from outside. Siwon gulps. He doesn’t know where their conversation will lead to.
“Yes.”
“And then?”, Siwon didn’t answer the question. He just moves his index finger to circle around his cup.
“I don’t want you to misunderstand my rejection.”, Yesung speak out his mind. This time he turns his body to look at the younger, but the latter just keeps lowering his head, doesn’t dare to meet up with the older.
“I’m sorry.”, Siwon said again. “I don’t want to disappoint you. I admit that I was being too childish last night. But I-“
“I don’t want to hear it.”, Yesung said almost in whisper. He curled his body up and buried his head on his knees.
“Hyung-“
“Stop!”, Yesung snap. He met Siwon eyes. His eyes become wider, full of sadness, anxiety, anguish, fear. His lips trembling slightly. His face flushed a bit red, trying to hold back his emotion.
“You’ll be just like her! She always supported me! She was humble, kind, cheerful, I can rely at her. But then she said I was boring and she wasn’t interested anymore with me! She turns her back when I just want to pursue my career! She can’t bear me who choose my dream instead a boring, unhappy job! Fuck her!”, tears come streams down his cheeks and he almost choked at his last words as he expressing his heart. Siwon immediately grab and hug him. He let the man cry on his embrace and do nothing besides caressing the man’s back to soothing him.
“I don’t want to be hurt anymore. It’s enough for me to lose my parents and her. I don’t want to give a damn to any feeling besides being happy with my band.”
“Hyung..”, Siwon calls him in the way Yesung never heard before. He cupped and lift Yesung’s face so he can meet the teary eyes of his love.
“Please hyung, give me a chance to proof that I’m the man who can stand proudly beside you. I would never ever hurt your feeling. I want to ease your pain and become your source of happiness too.”
Yesung eyes grow wider before it got shuts. Yesung inhale his breath slowly, feeling everything around him, sinking Siwon’s words and his action these past months. The tears start to pour down once again, before Yesung nods his head shyly. But it’s enough to make Siwon beaming his two dimples smile and kiss Yesung’s forehead before embracing his lover.
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“I kinda disappointed because you didn’t bring your lover, Wonnie-ah.”, Heechul huffed and placing his hands on his waist. Siwon just smile apologetically and fake a busy look trying to help Hankyung to put all Heechul luggage up to the car. Not far from them, Leeteuk still cry in Sungmin shoulder, because, honestly, Heechul is like his real brother. And to ever think that Heechul will move out with Hankyung just make his heart hurts although he can’t complain about that. Sungmin can only sighs while giving a soothing gesture for Leeteuk. “If Kangin was here..”, he tought sadly. Kangin has an important business he should take care of. Thus he have to leve his husband, who now is in miserable state.
“Come on hyung. It’s just three blocks away from here!”, Heechul whines looking at Leeteuk. But it only makes Leeteuk cry harder.
“Gosh, he already cry all night, isn’t that enough?”, Heechul grumble while picking up Heebum. He refuse to help Hankyung to moving all his things. With only a puppy look eyes, Hankyung just nods in understanding. Ha!
“There’s nothing more right?”, Kibum asks a bit tiredly. He massages his shoulder while asking this. Hankyung thought a moment before nodding.
“I guess that’s all.”
“Okay, we’ll meet again in your house.”, Siwon said and the other nods. Heechul climb to the car first.
“I guess he’s sad because Leeteuk, Kangin, and Sungmin have other things to do to help us decorate our home.”, Hankyung whisper. Kibum and Siwon just laugh at that. After bid goodbyes, Hankyung climb to his car, smiling because he was right. Heechul’s pouting and tears threating to spill out. He then pats Heechul’s head and makes the younger face him.
“They’ll visit.”, Hankyung assures him.
“I know.”
“Then why?”
“I just.. sad.”, Hankyung smiles again.
“This is just a beginning, Chullie.”, he said beaming heechul’s favorite smile. It’s always can lift up Heechul’s mood. True, because then Heechul nods and smile a bit.
“Yeah, it’s just a start from our happy story.”
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A/N 3 : Ah~~ It’s finally over! I want to thank you all who read my fics until it finish! It’s my first complete multi-chapter ever! Keke. I’ll be back in January with the continuation of my filler about Yewon!
A/N 4 : And if you're interested with YunJae, please feel free to drop by on my YunJae Filler!
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