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Title : Obsession Won’t Kill You
Pairing(s) : HanChul, Kangteuk, oneside!SiBum, YeWon, Kyumin
Rating : PG~PG-15 PG-R
Genre :AU, chaptered, cross-over (with DBSK)
Disclaimer : Of course I’ll only have them in my dream
Warning : rape, incest, paedophillia, grammar error, unbeta-ed, AU
Summary : Being kept for 4 years, suddenly Heechul found himself in the street with a warm blanket covering him and a map contain everything related to him. So once again his life begin..
A/N : I'm still lacking with third POV and English is not my first language. Feel free and please do point out if I make some mistake.
A/N 2 : I've learn more about posting. And I think I've try to fix it.. But if anyone thinks there's still some mistake, please do tell me so.
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Prologue Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4
Chapter 5 :Crushing the heart
They never mention about Siwon’s being in love ever again. It’ll be a little secret between him and Heechul. Kibum’s still furious about Changmin, although Heechul already forgive him. Now he often come to fetch Kibum after school, which mostly rejected by Kibum of course. Such a persistent guy. It’s just a pity that Kibum’s already in love with the oblivious guy, Siwon, but it’s not like Changmin knows about it.
“Siwon, are you coming to my party?”, Kibum asks one day. It’s his sister’s birthday party and he want his friends to come. But Heechul is out of question until he can stand alone in crowd, so Siwon is his only hope. He really wants him to come, introducing him to his family, and gives his sister a signal about his feeling toward the man. But Siwon shook his head and Kibum’s just pouting then.
“I’ve some plan that day. I already promised Father Adriel to help him clean the church. I’m sorry.”, Siwon said apologetically. Kibum knows he can’t get angry with the man in front of him. It’s Siwon after all. A religious boy who can’t shut his mouth up if he talk about bible, kind to everyone, responsible and reliable. He’s perfect. And even he shouldn’t hope that Siwon would be gay, deep down he pray about it. He bit his bottom lip and take Heechul’s hand as the bell ring again after luch. Siwon just sigh and follow them.
They didn’t say a word through class and Heechul feels uneasy. He has a part time job after this and Sungmin already promise him to pick him up later, but he can’t ignore this uncomfortable feeling. He frown at Kibum who is in deep thought and Siwon who being busy take some note and listen to teacher’s explanation. He turns his view to the window, enjoying the scenery out there. It’s almost in the middle of summer, maybe its hotness makes everyone angry easily? He never really knew about this. His oppa never come home to him angry in the summer, instead he always beaming Heechul’s favorite smile and bring him many flower to his delight. Everything was perfect. But every perfect thing won’t last long. Now he knows that. He sighs and follow his eyes wonder to every detail branch of the tree that towering in front of building. He just hopes something happen. He almost bored.
After Sungmin picks Heechul up, there’s just Siwon and Kibum alone. Siwon has a practice match so Kibum decide to watch him until drop. And then, what they know after that, they already making up and chatting as usual.
“Kibum.”, Changmin said lean on the wall, waiting him in front of the desert gate. It’s almost empty, just a few people passing by. Kibum glare at him, but he don’t care. He just smirk and approaches his love.
“I already told you so many times that I don’t need you to fetch me.”, Kibum said with warning tone. But as always, Changmin never care. That guy really determines to make Kibum his, he’s willing to do anything.
“And I always told you I’m not gonna listen and will pick you up anyway.”, he said.
“Back off!”, Kibum scowl and he move closer to Siwon. The said man just stood there, watching. Because, really, he don’t want to butt in into other business and he know his friend can take good care of his business himself, he’ll only move if it’s become uncontrollable.
“Come on, Kibum. You should let your friend go home. It’s our business after all.” True, Siwon thought. But he won’t leave his friend alone. And suddenly Kibum yank him closer and kiss him on the lips. To say that he was surprise is underestimated. He was beyond shocked. His body unmoved and he just stood there with wide eyes (like Changmin). It’s different with his first kiss a month ago. Of course it’s not sweet also, but there’s something missing. Maybe, because he has no feeling to Kibum? But why does Kibum kiss him right now?!
After some time, Kibum leave Siwon’s lips and he stare at him closely. There’s a tenderness in his eyes, a fear, and shyness. Kibum’s a beautiful person, Siwon must admit. But he is not Yesung.
Changmin left after that, but it’s not bothering both of them. They just stood there. Siwon staring at Kibum intensely, also with a confuse covering his facial expression, while Kibum just hang his head low, afraid to look his friend on his eyes.
“Kibum, look at me.”, Siwon asks. Slowly Kibum raise his head, his eyes pleading. “Please explain this to me. I don’t- I don’t understand. Did you just kiss me to get rid of him? Or is it because something else?”, he adds. He saw Kibum already on the verge to cry.
“Siwon, I-“
“But it’s wrong. Either way, it’s wrong.”, Siwon cuts in. He places his right hand on his waist and let his left hand massaging his temple.
“I know. I’m sorry. Despite your personality and religion, I still insist..”
“No. It’s not because of that. Right, I’m sorry. What’s your explanation then?”, he saw Kibum’s mouth trembling. He almost fears that he’ll lose a friend and will regret it, but, now or nothing.
“B-both..”, Kibum said, whispering.
“What?”
“B-both.. I, I think I love you Siwon. I really do.”, Kibum still whispering because, hell, he don’t want to lose Siwon. He feels content if he’ll just a friend to Siwon. He’ll try to control his jealousy when Siwon get himself a cute girlfriend. But he can’t lose him, he just can’t.
“You gotta be kidding me.”, Siwon said. He gives up and sits on the road, don’t care about anything. School’s now empty anyway.
“I’m sorry..”, Kibum said, the tears form on his eyes ready to spill. Siwon can’t take it anymore. He can’t bear it when his friend like that, be either it Heechul or this guy who just confess to him (more like he force him to confess, but whatever).
“Don’t cry, Kibum-ah.”, Siwon said. “I, shit, I-“
“I know.. I understand..”, Kibum said closing his eyes. He doesn’t need Siwon to tell him that he likes girl more. He don’t want it. But then Siwon places his hands on his shoulder, one hand wiping his tears on his face.
“It’s not like that, Kibum-ah. I really thankful that you love me. But..”, That’s it, Kibum’s getting ready to take the pain on his chest if Siwon starts to tell him disgusting words. “I’m already in love with someone else.”, was the only thing Siwon said.
He blinks, twice before fix his eyes on Siwon’s face. That perfect face looks sad and almost miserable, more miserable than him. He doesn’t understand. It’s him who being dumps, but why these guy the one who looks like that?
“I- I’m in love with someone. His name’s Yesung. I’m sorry.”, Siwon said again after he took a long heavy breath. He don’t want to believe this. Why? Why it’s not him? He ran, left Siwon alone there without looking back. And the day after, he absent claiming sick.
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Meanwhile..
Heechul thank the God because there are not so many people today. Sungmin promise him to be there until his shift over, he is alone today because Kyuhyun has to take care of some business.
Sungmin just sit there on the counter. He reads the book he brought with him. Occasionally he’ll check on Heechul. Heechul’s doing fine. Now he can handle stranger near his personal space and he has learnt to control his nervousness. He thinks his job is almost done. Well, not everything, but the important thing is he can be alone in the crowd and being normal. Well, just forget about cross-dressing thing. He’s so engrossed with his book and unaware about a man’s presence in front of him until the man touches his cheek with a cold ice coffee. He jerks away and glare at the man who just chuckling and reveal his sly smirk. Well, no other than Kyuhyun.
“Kyu, you shouldn’t do that to me!”, he said raising his voice. He grabs the coffee and sip it in one big gulp. Kyuhyun just couldn’t stop his smirk and sits beside him, watching his employee work.
“Stop your stupid grin, Kyu. It’s not funny.”, Sungmin adds and pouting. Now, Kyuhyun really gives him his stupid smile and receive a slap from Sungmin. “Yah!”
“It’s working, ne.”, Kyuhyun said pointing Heechul with his head. Sungmin’s eyes follow the direction and smiling then. He nods and place his head to the man’s shoulder.
“About the magazine you talking about..”, Sungmin starts. But Kyuhyun already shook his head.
“If he didn’t want to answer that, don’t try to find it out. Sometimes there are things that meant to be hidden.”, Kyuhyun said trying to act wise. Sungmin let out a giggle.
“Is that mean you hiding something from me?”, Sungmin asks. He lift his head to face the man, who currently is his boyfriend. Kyuhyun just shrug and smiling his trademark smile.
“What do you think?”, he said and he, again, receive a slap on his arm. Little did Kyuhyun and Sungmin knows, that they’re being watched by Heechul.
“That lovey-dovey couple.”, Heechul murmur. His eyes wander around to inspect the bookstore, before he starts daydreaming, about KyuMin’s first meeting.
…
“Hey.”, Sungmin said, surprising Heechul. It’s rainy that day, and Sungmin didn’t bring an umbrella with him. He is soaking wet and a bit shivering.
“Hyung! Why don’t you say you’re visiting?”, Heechul screech, practically panic to search a towel. But then, suddenly a towel is being dump on top of Sungmin.
“Dry yourself.”, Kyuhyun said. Sungmin then feels grateful and drying himself with that towel. “I think you need to change, maybe take a shower first before that.”, Kyuhyun adds and gesturing him to go upstairs, to his apartment. Sungmin hesitate before following Kyuhyun and left Heechul alone. He arrived at a well decorate place, and neat.
“Bathroom’s there, I’ll put some clothes in front of it. Suit yourself.”, with that, Kyuhyun’s back to downstair leaving a dumb struck Sungmin. He blinks, thrice, processing all things that happened to him. Wow, that was fast. At first, he just stand soaked wet in front of Heechul, and then that man gives, scratch that, throw him a towel, and the next thing he knows are he is in that man’s house! But then he just shrugs it off, and decides to take a warm shower.
After all clean, Sungmin decides to go back downstair. He finds Kyuhyun stands beside Heechul who sits and scribble down something while Kyuhyun observe Heechul’s work seriously. And then some costumer wants to pay, so Heechul go to the cashier.
“He’s a good boy, isn’t he?”, was the first thing that escape from his lips when he has face to face to the bookstore owner. Kyuhyun just smile and nods.
“Hey,”, Sungmin call leaning on the desk while whisper so closely (and innocently) on Kyuhyun’s ear makes him shiver. “You know that Heechul is a boy, right?”, he said timidly. At first, Kyuhyun just give out chuckles, but then it becomes laugh, a loud one.
“I know. And what are you expect me to do? Think that he’s abnormal? Sure, he is. But it’s just his appearance. He looks normal to me. And he do looks cute dressed up like that.”, Kyuhyun said after calming himself. Sungmin only blush at that comment. He just wants to know Kyuhyun reaction regarding that. But the way he said it, makes him embarrassed.
“Hey.”, Kyuhyun said placing his left hand to Sungmin’s shoulder and drag the psychologist to move closer to him. Then he place his right hand in front of Sungmin’s ear as he whisper, “Do you have a boyfriend?”. And Sungmin only can blush redder than he was.
…
Heechul shook his head thinking about that and look at the couple again. Wow, now they’re making out, again. It’s just a matter of time until they move upstair. Now he wonder what’s Sungmin intention to come here, him or Kyuhyun?
And for the second time this day, he thinks that it’ll be good if something happen to his normal life.
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Heechul wants to be mad at Siwon, but he can’t. It’s not his fault Kibum’s fall in love with him. So many people fall for him, so what makes Kibum any different? Right, it’s because Kibum’s his friend. But Siwon is his friend too. And he still practically give out a vibe that he’s still in his (not) little problem right now, of course Heechul can’t be mad at him.
And here he is, practically go alone to Kibum’s house on Saturday, because he insist to visit his mourning friend, without Siwon. He already memorize the route anyway, and it’s not like there’ll be a lot of people on his way, because Kibum’s house is in a quite environment. An elite complex if he must said it out loud. Sigh.
He’s not walking too fast or too slow, just a steady one. He doesn’t need to rush because he has an entire day to be with his friend. He keeps telling himself that he’ll go there to makes Kibum happy again, to make Kibum his priority and he playing around wasn’t an option, except if Kibum was doing that with him.
Suddenly, he hears some footsteps. At first, he just thinks that it’s just some pedestrian, but they pace was too slow and it’s like they follow him. So he just do what he can think right now. Act like he wants to lace his shoes. And the footsteps was put on stop. Right. Shit. He try to glance at them, a four boy on their teenage days. Not so bad, but it is bad for him. But he tries to calm down. Before he walks again, he breathe deeply. One step, the others follow. Two, and they too, take a steps. Okay, it’s time to start panic. And he do what he thinks right now : run!
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“Why don’t you understand these simple things, Jaejoong?! For how long you wants to playing around like this?!”, Yunho roared at his boyfriend through the phone. They’re in a huge fight now, apparently. Their biggest quarrel over their three years of dating. And fuck, it’s their anniversary for God’s sake!
“God damn it, Jaejoong! Can’t you put some time to go out with me?! It’s our fucking third anniversary!”, he said again, screaming.
“Do you think I want to be here, Yunho?! Huh? Why can’t you understand me like in the past?!”, Jaejoong spat. He throw everything’s on his desk, scattering it everywhere around his office.
“What part of me that doesn’t understand you?!”
“I’m busy, Yunho! I don’t have the time to fucking around a big boobs or hot chicks or even a hot guy like you!”
“Busy? You call it busy? I always have a time for you. Be it in midnight or even dawn whenever you seek my comfort, no matter how busy I am. And I’m always not complaining about that!”, Yunho feels frustrate. He knows that his lover’s busy right now. A simple, “I’ll make it up to meet you in your apartment after I finish this tonight” will do. But Jaejoong only makes it harder.
“If you want someone else that bad, then just go find another man or woman! I’m not even care about that!”, that’s it. He is tired, tired over Jaejoong personality. Tired over his relationship with him. So he cut the line after said, “I will.”
And here he is, wants to fetch Changmin because he promise him to meet over an important tender, but apparently, Changmin’s in Kibum’s house doing only God knows what. He just wants to turn over his car when a girl walk not so slowly, okay, scratch that, she is practically running now, and he sees four men follows that girl. Thinking that maybe there’ll be something bad happen to the poor girl, he decide to turn off his engine and catch them up.
Heechul just keeps running and running. He doesn’t dare to look at his back. He try to run, faster, but the footsteps still haunting him. Shit, he never thinks walk alone in the afternoon in a normal street will end up like this. He keeps asking in his heart, why must this happen? He knows that maybe, he thought that he’s bored and wishing something to be happen, but not like this! When he just wants to turn, suddenly someone pulled him from behind.
“Gottcha!”, someone yell while the others panting. He was being dragged to a dark alley and they dump him on the cold concrete.
“Look what we have today, pal. A pretty girl.”, someone whistle. He tried to get up but his feet feel so week he can’t move. He starts to pray that maybe someone would want to help him. When someone grab his wrist, he starts to sob.
“Don’t cry, pretty. We’ll make you feel good.”, someone else chuckles. They touch almost every inch of his upper body before move to his lower. Heechul gasps and try to struggle but then one of them slap his cheek. His eyes widen in horror as they keep his body still. One of them grope his member after they dispose his underwear.
“Oh, what do we have here? A queer! He’s a boy!”, said the one who grope him.
“Ah, it doesn’t matter! He’s pretty so it’s good enough to fuck him.”, someone reason so they didn’t stop. No matter he begged and pleads to them.
“Please.. stop..”, he whisper trying to bit his lips from moaning when someone’s hand prying his entrance. He feels so dirty. He closes his eyes not wanting to look anymore.
“STOP!”, suddenly someone growl. They just laugh. They are mocking the man who tried to rescue him.
“He’s just a man.”, someone said shoo-ing him.
“Doesn’t matter, you jerk. Now let him go or you’ll gonna have trouble with me.”, the man said fisting his knuckle. And suddenly a fight broke. But it didn’t last long. The man win and the four of them run for their safety.
The man then approaches him, he was so scared, thinking that it was his end. Heechul can’t keep himself from trembling, shaking, and crying on the spot. He hug his body tightly trying to protect himself.
“Are you alright?”, the man ask after he drop his knee beside him. The man offers his hand but Heechul just can stare at him in fear.
“I’m not gonna hurt you. My name’s Yunho. I’ll escort you home if you don’t mind.”, Yunho said his face full of concern. Heechul then try to stop his cry and wipe his tears away. He thinks that maybe, this man can be trust worthy, so he take the man’s hand.
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On the way home, Heechul just keeps silent. He rubs his body again and again and swaying his body back and fro. His lips still trembling and his eyebrows knit like he’s in a deep thought. Yunho sighs at the sight. When they arrive at the apartment building, Yunho insist to escort Heechul upstairs until he met with Heechul’s guardian.
Leeteuk was so surprise finding Heechul shivering with a stranger after he opens the door. Heechul immediately grab Leeteuk hands and hug him tightly.
“He won’t come back to me now, Teukie-hyung! Oppa won’t come back to fetch me now!”, Heechul cried. Thinking that his oppa will disgust him was so painful and he can’t do nothing but cry. Leeteuk glance to the man and asking him with his eyes.
“Some people force their way to him. I don’t know what they done..”, Yunho said a bit stuttering. Leeteuk gasp and hug Heechul more and then patted the boy’s head, calming him.
“It’s alright dear. I know your oppa will come to you. Shhh.. everything’s gonna be fine. Trust me.”
After that Leeteuk drag him to to the bathroom, asking him gently to just take a warm shower. Yunho wants to leave but seeing Leeteuk pleading eyes, he stay (who can resist Leeteuk anyway?).
Heechul stand still leaning on the wall. His empty eyes just looking at the cold tile. His oppa won’t come back. The thought that his oppa will come fetch him was the one that keeps Heechul strong. But after what they had done to him makes the thought crush and break. He starts to sob again while processing his way to put his soft yellow sleeveless dress off from his body and walk to the shower.
He tried to rub his skin harder to forget the incident. Harder, harder, until his skin burnt and so red but he didn’t care.
“AAAAAAARRRGGGHHH!!!!”, Heechul’s scream makes Leeteuk and Yunho who just sit on their couch jumps. Leeteuk immediately run to the bathroom and find heechul slump on the corner, curling himself.
“Heechul!”, Leeteuk grab him and hug him again, more tight than ever. His heart hurt when he hears Heechul cry in his embrace.
“Why does it must happen to a poor boy like him? I don’t want to see him cry like this”, Yunho tought in his mind watching the scene.
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Hankyung sits in his office behind his desk. He scans the folder in front of him, and with his tremble hand, he pick up one of the photos; Heechul laughing with Siwon and Kibum in the school yard. He trace Heechul figure so slowly with his index finger. His body shaking and he’s not sure wether he wants to cry or smile watching the photos.
“Finally I found you, my love.”, he said still tracing his finger over the photo. But then he sigh, putting the photo back and lean on his comfy chair. He stares at the window with unreadable expression.
“But seeing you happy like this, I’m scared you’ll rejected me now..”
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A/N 3: As I said on the previous chapter, I’ll make a one-shot about YeWon before I make chapter 6 (and it's kinda NC-17 *blush*).. Tell me if I’ve make them out of character, I’ll try to fix it. Yunho/Heechul anyone? *gasp* NO! I’m just kidding! I don’t have a heart to pair him up with anybody else beside Hankyung.. *batting my eyelashes* As usual, any comment or critique are always <3
A/N 4 : wow, so many A/N today.. I just want to say that I can't concentrate on my assignments and do this instead XDD (such a bad girl)
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Pairing(s) : HanChul, Kangteuk, oneside!SiBum, YeWon, Kyumin
Rating : PG~PG-15 PG-R
Genre :AU, chaptered, cross-over (with DBSK)
Disclaimer : Of course I’ll only have them in my dream
Warning : rape, incest, paedophillia, grammar error, unbeta-ed, AU
Summary : Being kept for 4 years, suddenly Heechul found himself in the street with a warm blanket covering him and a map contain everything related to him. So once again his life begin..
A/N : I'm still lacking with third POV and English is not my first language. Feel free and please do point out if I make some mistake.
A/N 2 : I've learn more about posting. And I think I've try to fix it.. But if anyone thinks there's still some mistake, please do tell me so.
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Prologue Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4
Chapter 5 :Crushing the heart
They never mention about Siwon’s being in love ever again. It’ll be a little secret between him and Heechul. Kibum’s still furious about Changmin, although Heechul already forgive him. Now he often come to fetch Kibum after school, which mostly rejected by Kibum of course. Such a persistent guy. It’s just a pity that Kibum’s already in love with the oblivious guy, Siwon, but it’s not like Changmin knows about it.
“Siwon, are you coming to my party?”, Kibum asks one day. It’s his sister’s birthday party and he want his friends to come. But Heechul is out of question until he can stand alone in crowd, so Siwon is his only hope. He really wants him to come, introducing him to his family, and gives his sister a signal about his feeling toward the man. But Siwon shook his head and Kibum’s just pouting then.
“I’ve some plan that day. I already promised Father Adriel to help him clean the church. I’m sorry.”, Siwon said apologetically. Kibum knows he can’t get angry with the man in front of him. It’s Siwon after all. A religious boy who can’t shut his mouth up if he talk about bible, kind to everyone, responsible and reliable. He’s perfect. And even he shouldn’t hope that Siwon would be gay, deep down he pray about it. He bit his bottom lip and take Heechul’s hand as the bell ring again after luch. Siwon just sigh and follow them.
They didn’t say a word through class and Heechul feels uneasy. He has a part time job after this and Sungmin already promise him to pick him up later, but he can’t ignore this uncomfortable feeling. He frown at Kibum who is in deep thought and Siwon who being busy take some note and listen to teacher’s explanation. He turns his view to the window, enjoying the scenery out there. It’s almost in the middle of summer, maybe its hotness makes everyone angry easily? He never really knew about this. His oppa never come home to him angry in the summer, instead he always beaming Heechul’s favorite smile and bring him many flower to his delight. Everything was perfect. But every perfect thing won’t last long. Now he knows that. He sighs and follow his eyes wonder to every detail branch of the tree that towering in front of building. He just hopes something happen. He almost bored.
After Sungmin picks Heechul up, there’s just Siwon and Kibum alone. Siwon has a practice match so Kibum decide to watch him until drop. And then, what they know after that, they already making up and chatting as usual.
“Kibum.”, Changmin said lean on the wall, waiting him in front of the desert gate. It’s almost empty, just a few people passing by. Kibum glare at him, but he don’t care. He just smirk and approaches his love.
“I already told you so many times that I don’t need you to fetch me.”, Kibum said with warning tone. But as always, Changmin never care. That guy really determines to make Kibum his, he’s willing to do anything.
“And I always told you I’m not gonna listen and will pick you up anyway.”, he said.
“Back off!”, Kibum scowl and he move closer to Siwon. The said man just stood there, watching. Because, really, he don’t want to butt in into other business and he know his friend can take good care of his business himself, he’ll only move if it’s become uncontrollable.
“Come on, Kibum. You should let your friend go home. It’s our business after all.” True, Siwon thought. But he won’t leave his friend alone. And suddenly Kibum yank him closer and kiss him on the lips. To say that he was surprise is underestimated. He was beyond shocked. His body unmoved and he just stood there with wide eyes (like Changmin). It’s different with his first kiss a month ago. Of course it’s not sweet also, but there’s something missing. Maybe, because he has no feeling to Kibum? But why does Kibum kiss him right now?!
After some time, Kibum leave Siwon’s lips and he stare at him closely. There’s a tenderness in his eyes, a fear, and shyness. Kibum’s a beautiful person, Siwon must admit. But he is not Yesung.
Changmin left after that, but it’s not bothering both of them. They just stood there. Siwon staring at Kibum intensely, also with a confuse covering his facial expression, while Kibum just hang his head low, afraid to look his friend on his eyes.
“Kibum, look at me.”, Siwon asks. Slowly Kibum raise his head, his eyes pleading. “Please explain this to me. I don’t- I don’t understand. Did you just kiss me to get rid of him? Or is it because something else?”, he adds. He saw Kibum already on the verge to cry.
“Siwon, I-“
“But it’s wrong. Either way, it’s wrong.”, Siwon cuts in. He places his right hand on his waist and let his left hand massaging his temple.
“I know. I’m sorry. Despite your personality and religion, I still insist..”
“No. It’s not because of that. Right, I’m sorry. What’s your explanation then?”, he saw Kibum’s mouth trembling. He almost fears that he’ll lose a friend and will regret it, but, now or nothing.
“B-both..”, Kibum said, whispering.
“What?”
“B-both.. I, I think I love you Siwon. I really do.”, Kibum still whispering because, hell, he don’t want to lose Siwon. He feels content if he’ll just a friend to Siwon. He’ll try to control his jealousy when Siwon get himself a cute girlfriend. But he can’t lose him, he just can’t.
“You gotta be kidding me.”, Siwon said. He gives up and sits on the road, don’t care about anything. School’s now empty anyway.
“I’m sorry..”, Kibum said, the tears form on his eyes ready to spill. Siwon can’t take it anymore. He can’t bear it when his friend like that, be either it Heechul or this guy who just confess to him (more like he force him to confess, but whatever).
“Don’t cry, Kibum-ah.”, Siwon said. “I, shit, I-“
“I know.. I understand..”, Kibum said closing his eyes. He doesn’t need Siwon to tell him that he likes girl more. He don’t want it. But then Siwon places his hands on his shoulder, one hand wiping his tears on his face.
“It’s not like that, Kibum-ah. I really thankful that you love me. But..”, That’s it, Kibum’s getting ready to take the pain on his chest if Siwon starts to tell him disgusting words. “I’m already in love with someone else.”, was the only thing Siwon said.
He blinks, twice before fix his eyes on Siwon’s face. That perfect face looks sad and almost miserable, more miserable than him. He doesn’t understand. It’s him who being dumps, but why these guy the one who looks like that?
“I- I’m in love with someone. His name’s Yesung. I’m sorry.”, Siwon said again after he took a long heavy breath. He don’t want to believe this. Why? Why it’s not him? He ran, left Siwon alone there without looking back. And the day after, he absent claiming sick.
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Meanwhile..
Heechul thank the God because there are not so many people today. Sungmin promise him to be there until his shift over, he is alone today because Kyuhyun has to take care of some business.
Sungmin just sit there on the counter. He reads the book he brought with him. Occasionally he’ll check on Heechul. Heechul’s doing fine. Now he can handle stranger near his personal space and he has learnt to control his nervousness. He thinks his job is almost done. Well, not everything, but the important thing is he can be alone in the crowd and being normal. Well, just forget about cross-dressing thing. He’s so engrossed with his book and unaware about a man’s presence in front of him until the man touches his cheek with a cold ice coffee. He jerks away and glare at the man who just chuckling and reveal his sly smirk. Well, no other than Kyuhyun.
“Kyu, you shouldn’t do that to me!”, he said raising his voice. He grabs the coffee and sip it in one big gulp. Kyuhyun just couldn’t stop his smirk and sits beside him, watching his employee work.
“Stop your stupid grin, Kyu. It’s not funny.”, Sungmin adds and pouting. Now, Kyuhyun really gives him his stupid smile and receive a slap from Sungmin. “Yah!”
“It’s working, ne.”, Kyuhyun said pointing Heechul with his head. Sungmin’s eyes follow the direction and smiling then. He nods and place his head to the man’s shoulder.
“About the magazine you talking about..”, Sungmin starts. But Kyuhyun already shook his head.
“If he didn’t want to answer that, don’t try to find it out. Sometimes there are things that meant to be hidden.”, Kyuhyun said trying to act wise. Sungmin let out a giggle.
“Is that mean you hiding something from me?”, Sungmin asks. He lift his head to face the man, who currently is his boyfriend. Kyuhyun just shrug and smiling his trademark smile.
“What do you think?”, he said and he, again, receive a slap on his arm. Little did Kyuhyun and Sungmin knows, that they’re being watched by Heechul.
“That lovey-dovey couple.”, Heechul murmur. His eyes wander around to inspect the bookstore, before he starts daydreaming, about KyuMin’s first meeting.
…
“Hey.”, Sungmin said, surprising Heechul. It’s rainy that day, and Sungmin didn’t bring an umbrella with him. He is soaking wet and a bit shivering.
“Hyung! Why don’t you say you’re visiting?”, Heechul screech, practically panic to search a towel. But then, suddenly a towel is being dump on top of Sungmin.
“Dry yourself.”, Kyuhyun said. Sungmin then feels grateful and drying himself with that towel. “I think you need to change, maybe take a shower first before that.”, Kyuhyun adds and gesturing him to go upstairs, to his apartment. Sungmin hesitate before following Kyuhyun and left Heechul alone. He arrived at a well decorate place, and neat.
“Bathroom’s there, I’ll put some clothes in front of it. Suit yourself.”, with that, Kyuhyun’s back to downstair leaving a dumb struck Sungmin. He blinks, thrice, processing all things that happened to him. Wow, that was fast. At first, he just stand soaked wet in front of Heechul, and then that man gives, scratch that, throw him a towel, and the next thing he knows are he is in that man’s house! But then he just shrugs it off, and decides to take a warm shower.
After all clean, Sungmin decides to go back downstair. He finds Kyuhyun stands beside Heechul who sits and scribble down something while Kyuhyun observe Heechul’s work seriously. And then some costumer wants to pay, so Heechul go to the cashier.
“He’s a good boy, isn’t he?”, was the first thing that escape from his lips when he has face to face to the bookstore owner. Kyuhyun just smile and nods.
“Hey,”, Sungmin call leaning on the desk while whisper so closely (and innocently) on Kyuhyun’s ear makes him shiver. “You know that Heechul is a boy, right?”, he said timidly. At first, Kyuhyun just give out chuckles, but then it becomes laugh, a loud one.
“I know. And what are you expect me to do? Think that he’s abnormal? Sure, he is. But it’s just his appearance. He looks normal to me. And he do looks cute dressed up like that.”, Kyuhyun said after calming himself. Sungmin only blush at that comment. He just wants to know Kyuhyun reaction regarding that. But the way he said it, makes him embarrassed.
“Hey.”, Kyuhyun said placing his left hand to Sungmin’s shoulder and drag the psychologist to move closer to him. Then he place his right hand in front of Sungmin’s ear as he whisper, “Do you have a boyfriend?”. And Sungmin only can blush redder than he was.
…
Heechul shook his head thinking about that and look at the couple again. Wow, now they’re making out, again. It’s just a matter of time until they move upstair. Now he wonder what’s Sungmin intention to come here, him or Kyuhyun?
And for the second time this day, he thinks that it’ll be good if something happen to his normal life.
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Heechul wants to be mad at Siwon, but he can’t. It’s not his fault Kibum’s fall in love with him. So many people fall for him, so what makes Kibum any different? Right, it’s because Kibum’s his friend. But Siwon is his friend too. And he still practically give out a vibe that he’s still in his (not) little problem right now, of course Heechul can’t be mad at him.
And here he is, practically go alone to Kibum’s house on Saturday, because he insist to visit his mourning friend, without Siwon. He already memorize the route anyway, and it’s not like there’ll be a lot of people on his way, because Kibum’s house is in a quite environment. An elite complex if he must said it out loud. Sigh.
He’s not walking too fast or too slow, just a steady one. He doesn’t need to rush because he has an entire day to be with his friend. He keeps telling himself that he’ll go there to makes Kibum happy again, to make Kibum his priority and he playing around wasn’t an option, except if Kibum was doing that with him.
Suddenly, he hears some footsteps. At first, he just thinks that it’s just some pedestrian, but they pace was too slow and it’s like they follow him. So he just do what he can think right now. Act like he wants to lace his shoes. And the footsteps was put on stop. Right. Shit. He try to glance at them, a four boy on their teenage days. Not so bad, but it is bad for him. But he tries to calm down. Before he walks again, he breathe deeply. One step, the others follow. Two, and they too, take a steps. Okay, it’s time to start panic. And he do what he thinks right now : run!
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“Why don’t you understand these simple things, Jaejoong?! For how long you wants to playing around like this?!”, Yunho roared at his boyfriend through the phone. They’re in a huge fight now, apparently. Their biggest quarrel over their three years of dating. And fuck, it’s their anniversary for God’s sake!
“God damn it, Jaejoong! Can’t you put some time to go out with me?! It’s our fucking third anniversary!”, he said again, screaming.
“Do you think I want to be here, Yunho?! Huh? Why can’t you understand me like in the past?!”, Jaejoong spat. He throw everything’s on his desk, scattering it everywhere around his office.
“What part of me that doesn’t understand you?!”
“I’m busy, Yunho! I don’t have the time to fucking around a big boobs or hot chicks or even a hot guy like you!”
“Busy? You call it busy? I always have a time for you. Be it in midnight or even dawn whenever you seek my comfort, no matter how busy I am. And I’m always not complaining about that!”, Yunho feels frustrate. He knows that his lover’s busy right now. A simple, “I’ll make it up to meet you in your apartment after I finish this tonight” will do. But Jaejoong only makes it harder.
“If you want someone else that bad, then just go find another man or woman! I’m not even care about that!”, that’s it. He is tired, tired over Jaejoong personality. Tired over his relationship with him. So he cut the line after said, “I will.”
And here he is, wants to fetch Changmin because he promise him to meet over an important tender, but apparently, Changmin’s in Kibum’s house doing only God knows what. He just wants to turn over his car when a girl walk not so slowly, okay, scratch that, she is practically running now, and he sees four men follows that girl. Thinking that maybe there’ll be something bad happen to the poor girl, he decide to turn off his engine and catch them up.
Heechul just keeps running and running. He doesn’t dare to look at his back. He try to run, faster, but the footsteps still haunting him. Shit, he never thinks walk alone in the afternoon in a normal street will end up like this. He keeps asking in his heart, why must this happen? He knows that maybe, he thought that he’s bored and wishing something to be happen, but not like this! When he just wants to turn, suddenly someone pulled him from behind.
“Gottcha!”, someone yell while the others panting. He was being dragged to a dark alley and they dump him on the cold concrete.
“Look what we have today, pal. A pretty girl.”, someone whistle. He tried to get up but his feet feel so week he can’t move. He starts to pray that maybe someone would want to help him. When someone grab his wrist, he starts to sob.
“Don’t cry, pretty. We’ll make you feel good.”, someone else chuckles. They touch almost every inch of his upper body before move to his lower. Heechul gasps and try to struggle but then one of them slap his cheek. His eyes widen in horror as they keep his body still. One of them grope his member after they dispose his underwear.
“Oh, what do we have here? A queer! He’s a boy!”, said the one who grope him.
“Ah, it doesn’t matter! He’s pretty so it’s good enough to fuck him.”, someone reason so they didn’t stop. No matter he begged and pleads to them.
“Please.. stop..”, he whisper trying to bit his lips from moaning when someone’s hand prying his entrance. He feels so dirty. He closes his eyes not wanting to look anymore.
“STOP!”, suddenly someone growl. They just laugh. They are mocking the man who tried to rescue him.
“He’s just a man.”, someone said shoo-ing him.
“Doesn’t matter, you jerk. Now let him go or you’ll gonna have trouble with me.”, the man said fisting his knuckle. And suddenly a fight broke. But it didn’t last long. The man win and the four of them run for their safety.
The man then approaches him, he was so scared, thinking that it was his end. Heechul can’t keep himself from trembling, shaking, and crying on the spot. He hug his body tightly trying to protect himself.
“Are you alright?”, the man ask after he drop his knee beside him. The man offers his hand but Heechul just can stare at him in fear.
“I’m not gonna hurt you. My name’s Yunho. I’ll escort you home if you don’t mind.”, Yunho said his face full of concern. Heechul then try to stop his cry and wipe his tears away. He thinks that maybe, this man can be trust worthy, so he take the man’s hand.
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On the way home, Heechul just keeps silent. He rubs his body again and again and swaying his body back and fro. His lips still trembling and his eyebrows knit like he’s in a deep thought. Yunho sighs at the sight. When they arrive at the apartment building, Yunho insist to escort Heechul upstairs until he met with Heechul’s guardian.
Leeteuk was so surprise finding Heechul shivering with a stranger after he opens the door. Heechul immediately grab Leeteuk hands and hug him tightly.
“He won’t come back to me now, Teukie-hyung! Oppa won’t come back to fetch me now!”, Heechul cried. Thinking that his oppa will disgust him was so painful and he can’t do nothing but cry. Leeteuk glance to the man and asking him with his eyes.
“Some people force their way to him. I don’t know what they done..”, Yunho said a bit stuttering. Leeteuk gasp and hug Heechul more and then patted the boy’s head, calming him.
“It’s alright dear. I know your oppa will come to you. Shhh.. everything’s gonna be fine. Trust me.”
After that Leeteuk drag him to to the bathroom, asking him gently to just take a warm shower. Yunho wants to leave but seeing Leeteuk pleading eyes, he stay (who can resist Leeteuk anyway?).
Heechul stand still leaning on the wall. His empty eyes just looking at the cold tile. His oppa won’t come back. The thought that his oppa will come fetch him was the one that keeps Heechul strong. But after what they had done to him makes the thought crush and break. He starts to sob again while processing his way to put his soft yellow sleeveless dress off from his body and walk to the shower.
He tried to rub his skin harder to forget the incident. Harder, harder, until his skin burnt and so red but he didn’t care.
“AAAAAAARRRGGGHHH!!!!”, Heechul’s scream makes Leeteuk and Yunho who just sit on their couch jumps. Leeteuk immediately run to the bathroom and find heechul slump on the corner, curling himself.
“Heechul!”, Leeteuk grab him and hug him again, more tight than ever. His heart hurt when he hears Heechul cry in his embrace.
“Why does it must happen to a poor boy like him? I don’t want to see him cry like this”, Yunho tought in his mind watching the scene.
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Hankyung sits in his office behind his desk. He scans the folder in front of him, and with his tremble hand, he pick up one of the photos; Heechul laughing with Siwon and Kibum in the school yard. He trace Heechul figure so slowly with his index finger. His body shaking and he’s not sure wether he wants to cry or smile watching the photos.
“Finally I found you, my love.”, he said still tracing his finger over the photo. But then he sigh, putting the photo back and lean on his comfy chair. He stares at the window with unreadable expression.
“But seeing you happy like this, I’m scared you’ll rejected me now..”
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A/N 3: As I said on the previous chapter, I’ll make a one-shot about YeWon before I make chapter 6 (and it's kinda NC-17 *blush*).. Tell me if I’ve make them out of character, I’ll try to fix it. Yunho/Heechul anyone? *gasp* NO! I’m just kidding! I don’t have a heart to pair him up with anybody else beside Hankyung.. *batting my eyelashes* As usual, any comment or critique are always <3
A/N 4 : wow, so many A/N today.. I just want to say that I can't concentrate on my assignments and do this instead XDD (such a bad girl)
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