Drabble Dump
Title: The Right Time
Pairing: Xiuhan
Length:610 words
Summary:I don’t wish you to comeback and I’ll never wait for you.
Luhan sits on Minseok’s bed while staring at the latter’s back who is stuffing his clothes to the medium size suitcase in front of him. Luhan knows he shouldn’t be here in Minseok’s hotel room (it was supposed to be their room but Luhan never really stay, he leaves his stuff on his friend’s car) but he can’t help it, he wants to spend the remaining time to see the elder because Luhan is not sure when will he see Minseok again.
It hurts him to see the man he loves is preparing to leave him, Luhan has the urge to hug Minseok and wish the time to stop but he holds himself with all his might. The younger can only grip the bed side so tight his knuckles hurt, while biting his lower lip.
Can I do this?
Can I survive without him?
The questions that has been on Luhan’s head for weeks before he decided to go separate way with Minseok and the others pops up again.
“Okay, I’m done packing” Minseok says, straightening his back. “Luhan” Minseok calls but he got no response,”Luhan” he repeats while shaking the guy’s shoulder in front of him.
The younger blinks his eyes and there’s tears streaming down his face, a soft thumb sheds it away before Luhan manages to do it.
“Don’t cry” Minseok whispers as he rubs Luhan’s back soothingly, “It’ll be okay”
Luhan can only lean closer to Minseok whilst staring at the floor. The younger wants to touch Minseok but then again, he knows it’ll hurt both of them even more. He wants to say something but he doesn’t know what, he’s been holding a sob for quite some times and his throat hurts, he feels dizzy since morning, his body ache and the uncomfortable feeling on his chest doesn’t make his physical injuries any better.
“It’ll be over soon and you’re going to be okay, Xiao Lu” The elder utters as if he knows what the doe-eyed guy in his embrace feels right now. Luhan will miss the warm and comforting hug that only Minseok can give; he will miss the words Minseok says to relief his anxiousness.
Luhan hears Minseok’s cellphone buzzes and he quickly shifts his body away.
This is it.
“I have to go” Minseok stands up and walks to grabs his suitcase.
Luhan follows the elder as he moves to the door.
“I want you to know that this situation isn’t easy for me and I believe you feel the same, but you made the right decision and it’s the best thing to do not only for you but also for us”
Luhan smiles wearily before he hugs Minseok for the last time, “And this is the right time for us to separate.” Luhan can hear the elder’s soft mumbles; the whispers shattered his already broken heart.
“Minseok, can we meet again?”
“I don’t know” Minseok says as he loosens his grip on Luhan’s shoulder, “But I don’t wish you to comeback and I’ll never wait for you because you’re home now, you belong here.” Luhan can feel the sincerity of Minseok’s words, it’s painful and yet, somehow, comforting.
“Make sure you’ll be successful, okay? And I hope you’ll always be happy, happier than before”
“I..I wish you all the best Minseok”
Minseok walks backward as he waves his hand to Luhan. The latter waves back and gives a smile to hold his tear from falling again. Minseok has turned away now, and as Luhan watches the elder’s back going farther away, he can see from Minseok’s footsteps that this is the right time to part.
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Title: Spaces
Pairing: Xiuhan
Genre: Angst
Summary: Who’s gonna be the first to say goodbye?
Notes: The title is taken from 1D’s song ‘Spaces’ and that song made me wrote this fic.
Luhan realized it’s not gonna be easy to keep their relationship. Some people say long distance relationship never last long but Luhan believe his love, their love, is stronger than the distant between them, tougher than the time zone difference. They’ve talked about this and ensure each other that they can do this.
The first 3 months were passed with a frequent (even almost unhealthy) texting, calling, and video chatting. They contact each other whenever they can and they always give a reply as soon as possible. Everything is okay and manageable though they do feel the fact that they can’t touch each other or cuddle is frustrating but in the end of the day they can find their way to endure it.
But as time goes by, Luhan can feel the first wave starts to hit them as Minseok’s schedule gets tighter. Luhan knows exactly how busy Minseok is because he’s been there going through the same daily activities with him so he keeps telling himself that he understands, he can wait. In long distance relationship, trust and high tolerance are very important.
Luhan does get a reply from Minseok even though it’s hours or days later but it doesn’t feel the same, the space between them keep getting wider, deeper and it’s getting harder to minimize it.
And Luhan is getting tired as they both get busier.
Luhan admits he didn’t think about Minseok on a day when he had to go to several cities to work and he felt bad about it, he used to think about him very often, small things like Americano, a coffee shop he sees across the street, kids playing soccer, and foods always reminds him of his lover but he just had so much things to do and think of and as a professional, he needed to prioritize his job that’s right in front of him. It left Luhan with no choice but to postponed the video chatting session more than five times and as time goes by, the thought of Minseok slowly begins to fade away from his mind or when he starts to think about him, part of him is sure the elder doesn’t think about him as well because if he did he would at least send a text.
It’s been 6 months since Luhan came back home, 3 weeks since he shouted to the person across the line, telling him that he was just as tired and frustrated as the elder did before he ended the phone call because he couldn’t handle more shouting and arguing.
And questions filled Luhan’s mind.
Is there a hope?
Does this relationship worth to fight for?
Is this the end?
Who’s gonna be the first to say goodbye?
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Today is the last day of 2014 and it's been months since my precious ship stop sailing i'm trying to be real here . I want to write a happy Xiuhan fic but the fact that I won't see their lovey dovey moment again in near future is dominating my mind up until now so i leave this fic on the last page of the year hoping that i'm leaving the sad angsty feels behind and i'll only think about the happy memories they had :) #XiuhanNeverDies