And it happens again... I've lost everything, except redemption

[han_nai_tenshu]

Deidara into the frat house knocking snow off his boots. He loved the snow, but just didn't like the cold that came with it. Setting down the plastic grocery bags he was carrying in his right hand, he shook off his trench coat. Kami he would be glad once he got rid of this sling. It was fucking annoying.

Itachi heard the front door close, his bedroom door was wide open and since he was doing nothing but farting around on the computer... he got up and poked his head around the door frame. He narrowed his eyes, he had told Deidara to give him a call when he got back from the store. The gimp would have trouble carrying in all the groceries on his own with only one good arm. He left his room and stood at the top of the stairwell, looking down towards the blonde. "Short term memory loss Dei?"

Deidara looked up the stairs at Itachi and glares at him. "Bite me! I forgot my cell phone yeah." He hangs up his coat and picks up the bags on the floor. "There are still some bags in my car. Don't let me stop you from getting them yeah."

Itachi descended the staircase and passed Deidara on his way to the door, "What crawled up your ass and died." he stated more than asked as he walked out the front door to get the remainder of the groceries in Deidara's car. Six bags total... and he was able to shut the trunk and close the front door behind him when he got back inside. He walked into the kitchen and set the bags on the counter, then started to put away the contents in their respective places.

Deidara had already started putting up the groceries from his bags. "You and I really need to talk about that night. Tenten found something that I didn't even realize yeah." He turns back to Itachi. He really wasn't in a good mood. He was so close to loosing the one he loves last night.

Itachi reached up and slowly started kneeding his right temple, "Then start talking... it seems as if we are the only ones around, so spill."

Deidara sighs and pulls down the collar of his shirt, showing the faded mark of the hickey that Itachi left him. "How the Hell did I get this? Tenten found it and freaked. And don't give me half the truth like you usually do. I want the whole story yeah."

Itachi turned around from putting something in the fridge, his right hand resting on the door handle as he shut it to look over at the blonde. "That would mean you assume I know what the hell happened to begin with Dei."

"I know you know something." Deidara frown. "You have a much higher alcohol tolerance than me and you didn't drink as much as me. I want to know what the hell happened. I woke up sore as hell the next morning, in places I didn't even know I could get sore, and now I have this mark on my neck yeah."

Itachi rolled his eyes, "It was strong sake Dei... I honestly dont remember much." It was hard for him to lie to the blonde, although he made it believable... it didnt change the fact that there was that pain in his chest again.

"Why do I not believe you?" Deidara sighs as he leans against the counter. "I honestly don't need this right now. First I've been having these fucking dreams and now I have mysterious marks appear on my body yeah."

Itachi stared up towards the ceiling, "I guess you have never heard of dream manifestation. First... what are your dreams about?"

Deidara runs his fingers through his hair, something he does when he is frustrated. "To put it bluntly, the dreams are more like nightmares. They're of you raping me up the ass yeah.
Han Nai Tenshu: Itachi snorted as he doubled over, trying very hard not to laugh, "Interesting word choice Dei..." He stood up strait again, "Dreams are just your subconscious screaming at you for your inner most desires. I had no idea... I thought you turned strait edge."

"I wasn't exactly willing in the dream yeah." Deidara sneered at him. He was telling Itachi something very personal and all he could do was laugh about it?! Damnit he wanted the truth. "Just tell me what happened that night and get it over with. Tenten told me that you said something so that tells me that you do remember yeah!"

"Nothing happened, at least nothing like rape," Itachi answered... he at least didn't think it was rape, and as long as Deidara didn't fully remember... it would stay that way. It was drunk sex... yeah he didn't have as much alcohol in his system but it was still there. "You were piss face drunk, I asked you for asprin since I had a splitting headache. And the next thing I remember... I'm waking up next to you. After what I had told you that night... I felt like you would blame shit on me." He sighed and returned to putting the last of the food away. "Figures... this shit always happens to me."

"You... woke up next to me?" All color drained from Deidara's face as he remembered that he woke up nude that morning. Then he remembered little details like where he was sore that morning, and remembering seeing drops of blood on his covers. Then of course there was the dream. "Please tell me this is your idea of a sick joke yeah..."

"Yeah I woke up next to you... so no... it's not a joke. You should know I dont mess around like that," Itachi sighed, he felt his shoulders slump. He hopped up to sit on the counter, letting his legs dangle off the edge, his torso moving with his shoulders to hang low. He got a sudden wave of depression, and he knew why. Some of the exact details were fuzzy... but he was still holding out. He could tell that Deidara was putting two and two together. "But nothing like that happened... at least... as far as I remember."

"Shit... This isn't fucking happening..." Deidara muttered as he put everything together. The dreams weren't dreams, they were memories coming back from a night of drunkenness. Pushing himself off the counter he heads for the door. "I need to go talk to Tenten yeah."

Cat like reflexes pushed Itachi off the counter, moving fast enough to reach out and grab the back of Deidara's shirt, "You want to enlighten me first so I know what kind of shit is going to start!" He didn't mean to sound so pushy... but he had a right to know what Deidara was thinking. He didn't want world war three going down around him.

Bringing his good hand up, Deidara grabs Itachi's wrist and uses the mouth on it to bite the other guy's wrist. "You know exactly what I'm talking about. You fucked me when I was in a drunk stupor you bastard yeah!" He looked over his shoulder at Itachi. "Those dreams weren't dreams weren't they? They were memories yeah."

"I dont know what the hell you are talking about..." Itachi snapped. The bite on his wrist stung, but he ignored it. Instead, he used the same arm that was being bitten into to take a firmer hold on Deidara's arm, yanking him back away from the door, sending the blonde into the wall. Itachi used his free hand to pin Deidara by the neck, pressing his body fully against him to hold him there. His voice dropped down to a low growling sneer, "You think I did that sort of thing to you? That's sick. Neither of us were in the right state of mind." His fingers tightened around Deidara's neck. "Just because I have a silly crush on you Deidara doesn't mean I would be a sick pervert and take advantage of you. Get over yourself."

Deidara made a choking noise as the grip on his throat tighten. Bringing his foot up kicked Itachi in the stomach to push him off of him. Rubbing his throat he glares at Itachi. "That is what happened so don't fucking deny it yeah! You're the one who is sick. You took advantage of someone you called a friend yeah!" He lower his hand and hand it create a clay bird, ready for Itachi's next attack if it was to come.

The kick didn't send him very far, he knew he could be fast and was behind Deidara instantly. He reached behind him, locking the front door. His anger was flaring, along with his temper. His eyes drastically altered from their normal black to the red and black of the Sharingan. When he was younger, he liked flaunting his powers... now that he was older... he used them more wisely. He was strategic and thought out his next move before he would make it. With all the present drama that was hitting the fan, the last thing Itachi wanted was for Deidara to hate him for making a mistake.

He reached out and took the blonde by the shoulder that supported the injured arm on Deidara looking him strait in the eye. After a flurry of hand movements, he cast the Genjutsu spell of the Tsukuyomi. Time and space, were altered to how he pleased. Deidara was at his mercy.

Deidara looked around confused. Itachi has never used the Sharingan on him before, but he knew there was nothing he could do now. He glares at Itachi and tries to pull away form. "What's there to talk about!? You fucked me when I was drunk yeah!"

"I said calm down," the mirrored black version of Itachi's eyes narrowed.

"Calm down?! You want me to calm down?! One of my best friends, some one I trusted, took advantage of me and you want me to fucking calm down yeah!?" He refused to say he was raped, that just didn't happened to guys, right?

"You either calm down yourself or I will do it for you..." Itachi responded... his voice cold and bitter. He didn't want things to be this way... he never wanted to resort to this... threatening a dear friend like this was not on the top of his to-do list.

"You are forgetting Deidara, that even though I do have a higher alcohol tolerance, it doesn't the change the fact that I was under the influence too. Do you really want to know what I remember? I'll tell you..." he paused... moving so that he was fully facing Deidara. "I asked you if you wanted it. You did not tell me no. Not once did you tell me to stop, you didn't fight back... my altered state of mind took that as an invitation."

"I didn't say yes either if the dreams that I had tell me anything." Deidara sneered an backed away from Itachi. "I didn't know what the hell was going on and you knew that didn't you yeah?"

"No..." he shook his head, "I could see what was happening, but could do nothing to stop it. My body switched to autopilot. Besides... from the way you were responding, how was I supposed to get a no out of it." He stepped closer to the blonde. "Normally moaning like that means that someone wants more. So that's what I did."

Deidara steps back from Itachi and shakes his head. "No I wouldn't do that to Tenten. I didn't know what was going on yeah!"

"You had some idea Deidara... no one is that dumb, not even you. I even told you that it was me. I remember that much at least, because you had called for her... and I told you... she wasn't there... that it was me," his head turned... looking out at the expanse of his own time space limbo.

Deidara collapsed to his knees, his heart breaking at hearing Itachi's words. "No! It's not true. You're making this up yeah!" He looks at Itachi, as tears begin to feel his eyes. "Stop fucking with my head!"

"Your bringing this on yourself... Deidara... I never wanted to hurt you. This was an accident, you weren't even supposed to know how I felt, but I told you regardless because I trust you," his voice was low... barely audiable... but thanks to Tsukuyomi's limbo... his words were caught in the air... echoing so the blonde could hear just a whisper.

Deidara shakes his head. "Just leave me alone. Just stay the fuck away from me. I don't want anything to do with you yeah!"

"I can't do that Dei... " Itachi sighed... he turned and crouched down to where Deidara was sitting on the ground. He had never wanted to see the blonde like this... in this captured frame of time... in this condition. "After all we have been through together... you don't want to try and fix this?"

"There's nothing to fix yeah!" Deidara snapped. All he wanted to do now was get the hell far away from Itachi. "How do I know you won't do it again?! You do have a reputation remember? Just let me go, I want to go to Tenten yeah."

"I can't let you go Dei..." He reached out and grasped his 'friend' by the wrist. "I have a reputation of getting what I want..." he paused as he saw the horrified look on the blonde's face. He actually felt his heart breaking... something that normally shouldnt happen during the Tsukuyomi. He let go of Deidara, "But one never knows what they have until it's gone."

"I don't want this though!" Deidara snatched his hand away from Itachi. "Don't touch me! I want to be with Tenten now yeah!" He wanted out of this limbo, out of this house. Hell he even wanted to get out of town if it meant that he could get way from Itachi right now.

Itachi rose to his feet... breaking eye contact with with Deidara and looking out around him. "You are lucky... to have experienced the Tsukuyomi... and not die from it." And with a blink of his eyes... the time space limbo vanished and they were back in the frat. Itachi was still in front of the front door... blocking the exit. He couldn't handle this... not now. He knew that if things were going to turn out... he had to reach TenTen first. He had to be the one to tell her what happened. It was his fault, he should be the one to confess the sin.

Quickly, he grabbed a second set of keys that belonged to him... he hated to use this mode of transportation because of it's high risk factor.

Deidara collapsed to the floor again. In real life he was still standing on not on his knees like he was in the world Itachi formed. He tried to get up the the Shingarin took it's toll on him and he was unable to get up and get his keys before Itachi went out the door.

[OOC:] Comments disabled... for the same reason as last time.