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[han_jean]

Shit man - t'was the hardest thing i have ever had to do...right there in 30 mins.
A very wise person (!) is somewhat responsible for making me go through with it, and for that i am *extremely* grateful, and i will talk to you soon poo face!!

I:
- don't really know what to feel now.
- told her about the bulimia (lying only once throughout the

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[_morbid_pixie_]

Well done for being honest though,
what mediaction have you been put on?
I've just started fluoxetine, and I feel stereotyped too,
though I realise that it's because I'm under 18 and therefore can only be prescribed prozac, it just seems oh-so-typical.

The mental health teams, although being very understaffed are good if you are fortunate enough to get a good psych.
♥

[han_jean]

Fluoxetine too...

Idk - im not particularly keen on taking things any further - although i know i should...
i can easily predict that they'll put it all down to a strained relationship between mother and daughter and maternal relations having previous and on-going eating disorders...
i don't think it helped, but i sure as hell don't want them to blame my shit on anyone else.

and the whole "luck-o-the-draw-psych" thing is a pain in the ass.

[_morbid_pixie_]

I've had five psychiatrists in the past year, and only two were actually decent. The one I have now seems ok, though he seems convinced that I was abused or raped or something as a child, or since I'm Asian my parents are planning to give me an arranged marriage. Which is so far off the mark it's unbelievable.

I still think it's worth being referred. There's often a long waiting list anyway, but they may actually help.

My first psychiatrist tried to blame my problems on the birth of my little brother (he may have been a trigger as things got bad around the time he was born, but he is in no way responsible) which annoyed me immensely. My parents happy that they could pinpoint my problem to this one event believed him. The rest of the psych's have tried not to point the blame at anyone - my brother or my quick-tempered father but it still comes through.

How have you found the fluoxetine?

[han_jean]

I haven't even started taking it yet....
I'm not sure what's stopping me...maybe its just the overwhelming "there-is-something-wrong-with-me-after-all" factor...

*sigh* i feel so awful today that deep down i know i should at least try it...but meh!
It's not like it has immediate effect anyway... i'd still have to wait another 2 weeks, eh?!

How long have you been on it? any side effects? x

[_morbid_pixie_]

sorry it's been like a week for me to reply.

I've been on it now for, well I'm taking capsule no.9 today - so nine days.

It affected my appetite straight away, and I feel crapper than ever but who knows if that's connected with the fluoxetine.

Have you started taking it now?

[han_jean]

hey

Well i feel worse and have been biniging a lot more - i am oh-so-jeaous that it affected your appetite....well...i mean i presume it decreased your appetite - thats what it says on the tin, eh?!

had a lengthy discussion wih my doctor yesterday about the best times to take it with regards to vomiting it back up before absorption. i don't think she really realised a) how much i purge, and not always after a "binge"
b) how little control there seems to be around it and
c) how there's no pattern - just as and when baby...

but apparently its not her problem - thats the shitty referral she's made....
grr...i don't know where my head's at...

let me know when your drugs kick in....from what she's saying, i'm expecting to wake up one morning and be....happy....and cured....just like that...hmm....
xxx

[_morbid_pixie_]

It's strange that you're bingeing more, but maybe that's because you feel worse?

I never got a chance to talk to my psych about the best time to take it, so I figured night was the best time but it was keeping me up for hours so I've risked taking it in the morning but seem to be ok though my sleep is still meh.

Your GP sounds silly, it's still her problem. Do you know how long the referral will take? You should come to Solihull and see my GP - she's awesome and calls you "angel".

I'm a bit more skeptical, I'm not really expecting it to make much difference to my mood though I guess it will and I just won't realise it as much, or it just helps me get through my exams and through some therapy. I hope it does help us both though.
♥

[han_jean]

*packs an overnight bag and jumps on the next train to Solihull*

:)

[_morbid_pixie_]

Yay :)