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[hamtaro1230]

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Might as well tell you now as oppossed to later:

[meaghan1345]

Hi everybody! Umm, yeah I know I told you I wasn't going to be home until the 14th...but that changed. I went to Outward Bound on the 1st, and came home on the 3rd. What I realized when I was there, was that I was not mentally or emotionally ready to participate. The first night was good. But the next day we had to portage canoes. I couldn't do it. I had been feeling depressed since I got there, and kind of had a breakdown. Not because I couldn't portage the fuckin' canoe, but becasue when I failed at doing it, it made me feel ten times worse about myself. I had literally in two short days, gone back to a point of depression that I was at before I started taking anti-depressants. Physically, I know I could have pushed myself to do it...but my point in going on the course was to strengthen myself...to go forward. I didn't feel like I was going forward, but rather backward. My goal was to push my limits. But NEVER in my life, did I imagine that my mental and emotional state would get as bad as it did. Thus I came home. I did not want to write in my journal at the time I came home, as I spent many days just thinking. I don't regret my decision in leaving...I feel stronger for it, because I know my limits. And don't think for one moment that the reason I left was because I wanted to be home. Had it been something that was more up my ally that wouldn't push my emotional limits that far (think, two week theater-camp) then I would've been okay. But I wasn't. So yeah, I'm home now. Love you all!

♥ Meg

Re: Might as well tell you now as oppossed to later:

[meaghan1345]

well, that's what I wrote in my journal anyway.