counting one, two, three...

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LOOK IT WAS THE ONLY SONG I COULD THINK OF OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD THAT HAD COUNTING IN THE LYRICS. Don't judge my Brit-Brit love.

It's meme time, Taxon. WITHOUT FURTHER ADO:

THE FIVE THINGS MEME

We've all seen the fic, right? 'Five Times ________ Did ____________' and so on. We're gonna ~adapt~ that sucker, aw yis.

Here's how it goes:
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[midwesten]

OKAY. You get brief meta-answers because writing drabbles would be an emo-deluge, on account of Michael Westen is an emo-deluge kind of man.

1. Leaving home without a word and not contacting Maddie or Nate for the longest time. As much as he sucks at apologizing, it did really hurt their feelings and damage his relationship with them; he may not realize easily that people actually do care about him and worry about him and worry about him if he drops off the face of the earth for long periods of time, but they do, and he comes to this conclusion eventually. If he could have a do-over, he might've made a couple more calls home and maybe sent a postcard or two.

2. Abruptly breaking things off with Fiona the first time, or letting them be broken off. Michael is, again, a complicated boy, and it's hard to say what exactly he wants out of his relationship with Fi -- or what his relationship with Fi is exactly -- but like with his fam, he's beginning to realize people actually get hurt when he up and blows away with the next set of Santa Ana winds and a lot of his current strife with her probably could have been averted if they'd ever managed to have just one straight-up state of the union talk about the two of them. Of course, knowing he should've done this then and actually doing it now are different things.

3. Burning Jesse on accident. This makes it sound like he was making scrambled eggs and touched him with the frying pan or something, but, yeah: Michael hasn't quite come far enough yet to regret not telling Jesse that he got him burned, because Michael still believes he can lie to people for their own good, but he definitely is pretty torn-up about ruining Jesse's life in the first place, especially since he was in the same position not too long ago. Michael's not used to his decisionmaking actually backfiring on other people -- he's too overconfident that the only thing he usually risks is himself.

4. Not reconciling with Frank Westen at all. This one is his #2 darkest secret, I think; he had an abusive, hateful father who I don't think he knows how he could have possibly made things better with, but every kid hangs onto the tiniest lingering hope that they might repair things with a parent, and Mike Westen is no exception. And for all the asshole was the asshole, at least he was -- always going to be back there. Except then he wasn't. But Michael will never admit this to anyone, and probably not even to himself, I think. It is buried in the darkest corner of the darkest closet in his mental house. Like S&G say: he's built walls, a fortress deep and mighty that none may penetrate.

5. Becoming a spy. His #1 darkest secret, hidden in a safe in the basement in that metaphorical house. The truth is, for all he's obsessed with becoming a proper spy again, or at least clearing his name: it was a pretty lonely, miserable, life-and-death existence. He just can't imagine what it would be like to live any other kind of life at this point. He has, as mentioned at other points, no off switch. But life in Miami with people he cares about and the chance to help people is making him question his life decisions just a tiny bit in the back of his mind; it's just actually entertaining this thought for-real would kind of undermine, like, his entire self-image and the person that he thinks he is.