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ok i think im gonna start posting in here...cuz in my xanga, i really cant post honestly in there cuz everyone i know from kuwait reads that and well, we all know i cant be completely honest with them about who i am .. i think itll feel much better writing in here...fun! im in the library now....obviously doing no work...ive been trying to concentrate but i just feel really upset about alot of other things right now its just hard to think straight...everything-my family, certain friends here...i have the biggest case of inferiority complex in the world...i sometimes consider just completely isolating myself and to not even try to meet new people and form new relationships cuz i honestly think that im completely incapable of doing either succesfully...and its really ridiculous that i cant work because of that...one minute im high and the next im really really low-i always think that forming a close relationship with another guy would make it all better but i know now thats not the case..cuz it always ends in more and more disappointment...i guess its just a matter of getting my priorities straight...aaaa so many thoughts right now i just dont know what to do