[private entry]
I didn't think this would hit me as hard as it did... Is it regret...? But for what? Not saying anything when I had the chance? It would have just ended in disaster anyway. So why do I feel so shitty? I've been drowning myself in work recently, really trying to keep my mind busy. I'm stressed, Jon is stressed. I think he thinks this is about me missing a bit of crow... I mean, I do... a little. But... I can't tell Jon about him... Or rather, I can't bring myself to tell him. Which is stupid, right? Because he's gone... It's not like he has anything to worry about...... If that makes me a coward... so be it.