aggravated at life!
Ok so even though I updated earlier today I'm going to do it again now because I'm in the mood to. I feel so fuckin pathetic. I feel weird at home, I feel weird at my Townhouse, I feel pretty fine at work because i stop thinking, all i do all day is file stuff so i don't really think at all, that's what gets me through because if i thought about it it would drive me crazy. It seems like everyone is doing stuff thats good and I'm just barely treading water if you know what I mean. I have 2 new jobs, the whole free summer housing thing is pointless because I don't like being there, I sit in my little room all alone and watch TV or do shit on the internet and I feel lonely. My roommates are decent enough but I don't know, i just don't want to be there and I'm gonna be home a lot, at least at home there isn't drinking, drugs, and sex happening everywhere. The days that I have class aren't too bad because they work those 4 days so they're pretty chill after work. It's Thursday thru Saturday nights that its pretty crazy in there and I just don't like. I miss the school year and I miss Russell Towers. Also, everyone is getting a boyfriend or a girlfriend and I'm not. The girls that I like have boyfriends and most likely don't like me anyway and the single girls that I know I am friends with and have no special feelings towards. I have this feeling that nobody out there likes me as more than a friend and it's always going to be that way, and it's not like I can say, well they'll all regret that when I'm rich and famous, cuz that's not gonna happen, I'm gonna be a High School math teacher, and it's not my style to think that way anyway. I know there are people out there that care about me as a friend and all but I dunno, I'm just, i dunno.... Anywho that's more than enough complaining from me now so please leave me some comments...