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I think it's important to know yourself. I'm not good at knowing myself, or understanding life in a realistic way. Those are two of my weaknesses. (To be honest I think it's that I do know myself well, but that I've trained myself to avoid bad feelings so much that I'll take weaknesses and badness and speak about them in a positive way-- which = unrealistic and there it is, but it happens.)
This is an incredibly sterilized way of putting this, but in the following entry I'm going to try and realistically understand my strengths and weaknesses as a person.
For someone like me weaknesses are easy to know, so I want to start with strengths:
STRENGTHS
• Flexible. (Willing to do something different if the way I've been working in up until then isn't working anymore.)
• Incredible tenacity in how willing I am to consider things in depth. Great capacity for in depth thinking.
• Kind-hearted, and motivated towards kindness. Determined for my contributions to the world to be ones of kindness. Motivated to reduce suffering.
• Idealistic; Believes that all things are good.
• Forgiving.
• Passionate and very motivated in my caring.
• Powerful and resounding instincts.
• Ability to make connections that other people might not.
• Ability to be positive and supportive. A loving and loyal friend. If I am needed I will drop what I'm doing and go help my friends.
• Complex, but with a pure and simple heart. Multi-layered.
• Good at coming up with ideas and differing perspectives.
• Incredibly curious.
• Highly attuned to the beauty of the world-- I have a zest for the wonders and impressionistic feelings/beauty of life.
• I pay attention to different things than some other people, and can notice and pick up on things that some people don't. (Ability to read between the lines.)
• Strong feelings. A colorful personality.
• Ability to "read" where people are coming from through their words, motivations and feeling they're conveying.
• Ability to reflect.
• Driven to understand.
• A good person and always intends to do good (even if this can fail).
Weaknesses:
• Poor at realistic and long-term thinking.
• Irrational/not objective.
• Self-conscious. (At worst, self-loathing.) Prone to doubting self and own choices and decisions.
• Inattentive in both first person behavior, as well as to details (DETAILS IN PARTICULAR) and various aspects of my life. Prone to falling off the face of the Earth without noticing it. Tendency to lose track of my and other people's lives. (These are all here because I feel they're all linked to the same problem.)
• Moody-- prone to writing off happiness as being shallow and not rooted in enough meaning.
• Conflict and bad-feeling in general avoidant. (Hiding. Lots of hiding and cowardice.)
• Prone to denial and refusal to acknowledge bad feelings in life, self, and others.
• Prone to ignoring or justifying around unhappy things in self, life and others.
• Emotionally dishonest.
• Adherence to "should" and "ought" in terms of living life.
• Terrified of engagement with and in life. Distrust of all environments and the unfamiliar. (Often feel exposed if I haven't yet made a place my own.)
• Disorganized, undisciplined, not good at persevering and prone to bad habits and hygiene.
• Poor sense of boundaries when it comes to other people's physical property. Lack of respect for other people's preferences if I don't feel they have a good reason behind them.
• Emotionally distant and awkward/nervous in conversation.
• Dislike of doing work that I don't feel is important (or what I want to do-- which is what I feel is important).
• Diversion into fantasy lands and escapism.
• Fear of failure --> refusal to engage --> poor at engagement --> failure --> great pain over having failed --> fear of failure
• Prone to holding unrealistic expectations.
• Will not ask people what what I need or want from them.
• Tendency to over-dramatize or go looking for things to ignite my passions/emotions.
I don't think these are complete or what I should do with them now that I have them, but I guess I'll return to them later once I finish my work.
This is an incredibly sterilized way of putting this, but in the following entry I'm going to try and realistically understand my strengths and weaknesses as a person.
For someone like me weaknesses are easy to know, so I want to start with strengths:
STRENGTHS
• Flexible. (Willing to do something different if the way I've been working in up until then isn't working anymore.)
• Incredible tenacity in how willing I am to consider things in depth. Great capacity for in depth thinking.
• Kind-hearted, and motivated towards kindness. Determined for my contributions to the world to be ones of kindness. Motivated to reduce suffering.
• Idealistic; Believes that all things are good.
• Forgiving.
• Passionate and very motivated in my caring.
• Powerful and resounding instincts.
• Ability to make connections that other people might not.
• Ability to be positive and supportive. A loving and loyal friend. If I am needed I will drop what I'm doing and go help my friends.
• Complex, but with a pure and simple heart. Multi-layered.
• Good at coming up with ideas and differing perspectives.
• Incredibly curious.
• Highly attuned to the beauty of the world-- I have a zest for the wonders and impressionistic feelings/beauty of life.
• I pay attention to different things than some other people, and can notice and pick up on things that some people don't. (Ability to read between the lines.)
• Strong feelings. A colorful personality.
• Ability to "read" where people are coming from through their words, motivations and feeling they're conveying.
• Ability to reflect.
• Driven to understand.
• A good person and always intends to do good (even if this can fail).
Weaknesses:
• Poor at realistic and long-term thinking.
• Irrational/not objective.
• Self-conscious. (At worst, self-loathing.) Prone to doubting self and own choices and decisions.
• Inattentive in both first person behavior, as well as to details (DETAILS IN PARTICULAR) and various aspects of my life. Prone to falling off the face of the Earth without noticing it. Tendency to lose track of my and other people's lives. (These are all here because I feel they're all linked to the same problem.)
• Moody-- prone to writing off happiness as being shallow and not rooted in enough meaning.
• Conflict and bad-feeling in general avoidant. (Hiding. Lots of hiding and cowardice.)
• Prone to denial and refusal to acknowledge bad feelings in life, self, and others.
• Prone to ignoring or justifying around unhappy things in self, life and others.
• Emotionally dishonest.
• Adherence to "should" and "ought" in terms of living life.
• Terrified of engagement with and in life. Distrust of all environments and the unfamiliar. (Often feel exposed if I haven't yet made a place my own.)
• Disorganized, undisciplined, not good at persevering and prone to bad habits and hygiene.
• Poor sense of boundaries when it comes to other people's physical property. Lack of respect for other people's preferences if I don't feel they have a good reason behind them.
• Emotionally distant and awkward/nervous in conversation.
• Dislike of doing work that I don't feel is important (or what I want to do-- which is what I feel is important).
• Diversion into fantasy lands and escapism.
• Fear of failure --> refusal to engage --> poor at engagement --> failure --> great pain over having failed --> fear of failure
• Prone to holding unrealistic expectations.
• Will not ask people what what I need or want from them.
• Tendency to over-dramatize or go looking for things to ignite my passions/emotions.
I don't think these are complete or what I should do with them now that I have them, but I guess I'll return to them later once I finish my work.