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Ever feel like you just aren't who you want to be?....maybe Im just worried about being a dad....I don't know I wasn't expecting it so fast....I need a job so bad....I feel like shit that I don't have a job but its hard....I am so limited when I can look and even more so now because rema is hurt....I always thought I would be somewhere or doing something by now....I don't know anymore I want to do so much for Renee and yet I can't do shit at all....I feel like hell because I can't do anything for her because I can't help out and I am doing my best around the house and with school but I am so depressed and I know I am slipping on everything but I am gonna change all that and get my shit together....I have to I hate myself like this and I am scared to touch her stomach because I don't want to send negative feelings to the baby....god I am glad no one reads these anymore.