I don't want to know...
Back in the beginning of this whole thing, i told Doron that I had no problem doing whatever it is that we're doing, so long as the moment that one of us start seeing somebody, we stop seeing eachother. So, now he's been kind enough to notify me that he's seeing some 18 year old girl for about a week. The thought of him sleeping with another girl makes me literally sick to my stomach. I'm pretty sure that instead of wanting him more or something because he's unavailable, I want him less. Of course I've gone on dates with several guys and even slept with one of them so it's perfectly within his right to be doing the same thing... but she was introduced to his mom (whereas my mom doesn't even know the names of all the guys that I've been out with), which probably meant that she spent the night.
I'm not interested in competing with some little 18 year old girl that's thinner, more eager to please, innocent and comes without baggage and is the same age as Edon almost.
When he told me, I just felt like this sharp pain in my chest and it was difficult for me to talk. Then I realized something, I didn't want to know. I didn't want to hear about her, I don't want to know her name, I don't want to know where she's going into the army and in how long, I don't want to know how they met and how long it's been going on, I don't want to hear what kinds of pets she has or siblings either. I don't want to know her, I don't want to know of her.
I don't even think that I want to have sex with him knowing that her hands have been all over him. Knowing that he's kissed her and done the same things to her as he's done to me... it makes me want to throw up.
I'm not interested in competing with some little 18 year old girl that's thinner, more eager to please, innocent and comes without baggage and is the same age as Edon almost.
When he told me, I just felt like this sharp pain in my chest and it was difficult for me to talk. Then I realized something, I didn't want to know. I didn't want to hear about her, I don't want to know her name, I don't want to know where she's going into the army and in how long, I don't want to know how they met and how long it's been going on, I don't want to hear what kinds of pets she has or siblings either. I don't want to know her, I don't want to know of her.
I don't even think that I want to have sex with him knowing that her hands have been all over him. Knowing that he's kissed her and done the same things to her as he's done to me... it makes me want to throw up.