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i really have very few complaints.
i don't want to get on here and talk about how much better my life is now that i am sharing myself with someone so beautiful and kind. BUT, i will, because that is the case.
He is everything I deserve and he lets me love him without restrictions. and loves me just the same.
Sometimes I feel afraid that i will lose him, that one day he will just realize that i'm not as good as he'd thought and that he can do better. I suppose when you love someone so much its a reasonable fear to have, but then, who else would love him the way I do. Who else would make him smile the way i can. I'm sure no one. We started saying "soul mates" to eachother as sort of a joke when we first started "hanging out"( i dont know what to call those initial days, we were pretty much attached from the beginning, we made the official "together" anniversaryish date the first day that we hung out. haha) . But yes, soulmates, if you believe in such things, ha. There have been times that we've had that i can't even describe the feeling because its something new to me, something i am still learning to feel, he brings things to life that i never knew exsisted in me. So...I guess that's all i can say about it without going on for too long and making anyone uncomfortable. haha.
Money is tight, as always, but i have a job and i'm trying to find a second one. i want a trip!
My kitties are lovely and soon to be fixxxxxxed!
It's nearing winter, so my skin will be better soon. i've gone the last half of summer really slacking on sunscreen. :/ no bueno.
It IS hard to write about things you aren't upset about. otherwise is just seems silly, people writing about being happy, CRAZY.
Ha.
i don't want to get on here and talk about how much better my life is now that i am sharing myself with someone so beautiful and kind. BUT, i will, because that is the case.
He is everything I deserve and he lets me love him without restrictions. and loves me just the same.
Sometimes I feel afraid that i will lose him, that one day he will just realize that i'm not as good as he'd thought and that he can do better. I suppose when you love someone so much its a reasonable fear to have, but then, who else would love him the way I do. Who else would make him smile the way i can. I'm sure no one. We started saying "soul mates" to eachother as sort of a joke when we first started "hanging out"( i dont know what to call those initial days, we were pretty much attached from the beginning, we made the official "together" anniversaryish date the first day that we hung out. haha) . But yes, soulmates, if you believe in such things, ha. There have been times that we've had that i can't even describe the feeling because its something new to me, something i am still learning to feel, he brings things to life that i never knew exsisted in me. So...I guess that's all i can say about it without going on for too long and making anyone uncomfortable. haha.
Money is tight, as always, but i have a job and i'm trying to find a second one. i want a trip!
My kitties are lovely and soon to be fixxxxxxed!
It's nearing winter, so my skin will be better soon. i've gone the last half of summer really slacking on sunscreen. :/ no bueno.
It IS hard to write about things you aren't upset about. otherwise is just seems silly, people writing about being happy, CRAZY.
Ha.