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I really want to be out doing something right now, anything that will take my mind from where it is. I hung out with Jill today, and really, as hard as we tried, we didn't have much luck cheering ourselves up. That's why we just kind of gave up and came back to the hotel to chill. It's like...all I can think about right now, is six months ago. Everything was going pretty damn great, aside from the whole not playing thing. I figured if mom was going to be off taking care of gramps, at least she was in Florida doing it. Might as well get away from the cold. And hell, she was with family too, so i'm sure they were all doing great...
Then, in a matter of seconds, I lost two aunts, an uncle, and my mother.
My entire world was flipped upside down. I kind of wonder if it's this hard now...how is it going to be come Feburary? I mean, maybe it won't be as hard. All things get easier with time, right?
All I know right now is that I wish I could get my mind on something else. I've spent all day going over memories and thoughts, and it hasn't gotten any easier. It's good to remember the happy times, and I know she's always with us...but it doesn't mean I don't miss her like hell.
I think i'm going to see if Jill want's to take another shot at going out. Neither of us need to be sitting around dwelling.
Then, in a matter of seconds, I lost two aunts, an uncle, and my mother.
My entire world was flipped upside down. I kind of wonder if it's this hard now...how is it going to be come Feburary? I mean, maybe it won't be as hard. All things get easier with time, right?
All I know right now is that I wish I could get my mind on something else. I've spent all day going over memories and thoughts, and it hasn't gotten any easier. It's good to remember the happy times, and I know she's always with us...but it doesn't mean I don't miss her like hell.
I think i'm going to see if Jill want's to take another shot at going out. Neither of us need to be sitting around dwelling.