MUST SLEEP!!!!!

[halotuesday]

AAAAAAHHH I CANT GET TO SLEEP!!!!! I have been trying to get to sleep for the past 2 hours but I just can't. I am pretty sure it is from shooting and killing the rabbit in my backyard (trust me I didn't like it at all but my mom made me cause it was eating her plants. and my hand is still shaking from pulling the trigger) and then watching saving private ryan after that. and also my best bud chris told me today that matt's dog (rex) died friday and chris's uncle is getting shiped out to Iraq in 3 days and I just hope that he doesnt die too. ....I have seen too much death today and I seriously cant get to sleep...grrrrrrr. so much tension...and death. I need a hug like right...NOW!! I'm really scared and sad and my hand will not stop shaking cause I keep thinking about how I shot the rabit...and I am not the right person for that kind of dirty job. It didn't deserve to die...why did I shoot it?...why didn't I just aim high and say that I missed and that it ran away?...I feel so guilty and I have lost faith in myself. I'm really mad at myself and my mom for telling me to do it in the first place. I never want to shoot another rabit again and I don't care what my mom says...she will just have to shoot it herself cause I just wont do it.
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