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I need a vacation. i dont know if its stress or what. i need a break. just get away from everything.
I need to find something that I am really good at. something that I am passionate about. For a lot of the people i hang out with, that passion is drama, the arts, music, singing, etc. I just dont know what mine is. its frustrating. i thought i wanted to do business and manage people. but correct me if im wrong but people dont have a lot of respect in highschool. friends and people in general really dont respect anyone. a lot of people dont even respect themselves enough to make the right decisions for themselves. its really sad when that happens. respect is something that is earned. not given out freely. you know guys who are respected are those boot camp guys. the drill sergants. they get respect becuz they can kick the shit out of the people they are training. so all i have to do is tone up and make people beleive that i can kick the shit out of them if i wanted to. like tyson. that guy pissed off is not something i want to see. i dont know if that would be me though. lover not a fighter. and i dont even do the loving part that good.......i may have said too much. =). im sure peter will comment on that soon enough. hes good at that. what the hell am i good at?!?1?!?
family guy tonight. theres a party over at peters. i dont think im gonna go. everyone is going to be there. its not even the homework. i can get that done quick enough if i would just start it. starting is the hardest part. ya ever just feel antisocial? its not that i dont like them. its jsut that i dont feel like being around people. i dont know. most people think thats odd. ive been up in my room for the day today. just thinking. also stalling becuz my homework is downstairs and i just dont feel like talking to anyone today. i know my mom is gonna ask me whats wrong. hate that. she cares but thats not how you approach a problem with someone. shes nearly 50 youd think she'd know how to by now. you ask the person "do you want to talk about it?" because it is obvious they have a problem. its are real "heres your sign" moment. if the person says no. thats the end of it. "whats wrong" makes the person lie by saying "nothing" and it makes the person even more closed up. most people even when they ask "whats wrong?" really dont actually care about their problem. they really jsut ask the question to spark conversation. ya ever notice when you are talking to someone who has just asked you that question and they stop paying attention to you. they either walk off or start talking to someone else....or just stare blankly. learn to listen. maybe its somethign that comes with maturity. which is weird becuz im not mature. i still have maturing to do. i mean i dont have to grow anymore or do anything physically but mentally and emotionally im behind. i understand the psychology of the mind fairly well and i understand people very well. im an observer. i observe. its what i do. its what i like doing. i like being a spectator and watching people. people are very interesting if you sit back and watch. for anyone in a choir, when you go into a choir, dont talk to anyone....just sit down and watch people get in the door and mill about. and just watch the people in general. there are over 60 individual people in that class. each one with their own personality and quarks. be sure when your watching that you dont stare. its very obvious when people stare. it just creeps people out. you can also do this to people in the musical. i used to go to the mall and al and i picked a spot right near the entrance, in front of that smoothy place as sparro pizza. just watching people. we were also looking at girls going by but i think that we've grown out of that a little. or at least i have. dont knwo about al.
taking a vacation doesnt have to be to some exotic place or even out of your community. take a vacation of the mind. do something you havent done before. slow down and take a look at life around you. there are so many things people miss that i pick up and just laugh at. ya ever laugh at something and youre the only one who noticed it. ya dont care that the people around you didnt notice it. ya ever done that? happens to me a lot. something else you can do. instead of watching the movie, observe the people around you watching the movie. i guarentee that at least one of them wont blink for a minute. guarenteed. one will have their mouth open slightly too. its actually usually the same person. hehe. its funny. a lot of people dont understand this. its ok. itll come. even for an instant. to realize what is really important in life. your quality of life is not your health, possessions, or worth, but the people in which you surround yourself with. if you surround yourself with good people, you will have a good life. guarenteed. im gonna go to the party now. thanks for listening.
bri, sweetie, do what makes you happy. dont let what i think or your parents think decide what makes you happy. youre your own person and do what you love. find that passion in life and just go for it. friends are there for eachother and to not only help you in the hard times but be there for the good times. im there for you in all those times. whether you believe this or not....i will always be there for you.
i want to update more. this is really helpful.
comment away!......if you feel so moved.
I need to find something that I am really good at. something that I am passionate about. For a lot of the people i hang out with, that passion is drama, the arts, music, singing, etc. I just dont know what mine is. its frustrating. i thought i wanted to do business and manage people. but correct me if im wrong but people dont have a lot of respect in highschool. friends and people in general really dont respect anyone. a lot of people dont even respect themselves enough to make the right decisions for themselves. its really sad when that happens. respect is something that is earned. not given out freely. you know guys who are respected are those boot camp guys. the drill sergants. they get respect becuz they can kick the shit out of the people they are training. so all i have to do is tone up and make people beleive that i can kick the shit out of them if i wanted to. like tyson. that guy pissed off is not something i want to see. i dont know if that would be me though. lover not a fighter. and i dont even do the loving part that good.......i may have said too much. =). im sure peter will comment on that soon enough. hes good at that. what the hell am i good at?!?1?!?
family guy tonight. theres a party over at peters. i dont think im gonna go. everyone is going to be there. its not even the homework. i can get that done quick enough if i would just start it. starting is the hardest part. ya ever just feel antisocial? its not that i dont like them. its jsut that i dont feel like being around people. i dont know. most people think thats odd. ive been up in my room for the day today. just thinking. also stalling becuz my homework is downstairs and i just dont feel like talking to anyone today. i know my mom is gonna ask me whats wrong. hate that. she cares but thats not how you approach a problem with someone. shes nearly 50 youd think she'd know how to by now. you ask the person "do you want to talk about it?" because it is obvious they have a problem. its are real "heres your sign" moment. if the person says no. thats the end of it. "whats wrong" makes the person lie by saying "nothing" and it makes the person even more closed up. most people even when they ask "whats wrong?" really dont actually care about their problem. they really jsut ask the question to spark conversation. ya ever notice when you are talking to someone who has just asked you that question and they stop paying attention to you. they either walk off or start talking to someone else....or just stare blankly. learn to listen. maybe its somethign that comes with maturity. which is weird becuz im not mature. i still have maturing to do. i mean i dont have to grow anymore or do anything physically but mentally and emotionally im behind. i understand the psychology of the mind fairly well and i understand people very well. im an observer. i observe. its what i do. its what i like doing. i like being a spectator and watching people. people are very interesting if you sit back and watch. for anyone in a choir, when you go into a choir, dont talk to anyone....just sit down and watch people get in the door and mill about. and just watch the people in general. there are over 60 individual people in that class. each one with their own personality and quarks. be sure when your watching that you dont stare. its very obvious when people stare. it just creeps people out. you can also do this to people in the musical. i used to go to the mall and al and i picked a spot right near the entrance, in front of that smoothy place as sparro pizza. just watching people. we were also looking at girls going by but i think that we've grown out of that a little. or at least i have. dont knwo about al.
taking a vacation doesnt have to be to some exotic place or even out of your community. take a vacation of the mind. do something you havent done before. slow down and take a look at life around you. there are so many things people miss that i pick up and just laugh at. ya ever laugh at something and youre the only one who noticed it. ya dont care that the people around you didnt notice it. ya ever done that? happens to me a lot. something else you can do. instead of watching the movie, observe the people around you watching the movie. i guarentee that at least one of them wont blink for a minute. guarenteed. one will have their mouth open slightly too. its actually usually the same person. hehe. its funny. a lot of people dont understand this. its ok. itll come. even for an instant. to realize what is really important in life. your quality of life is not your health, possessions, or worth, but the people in which you surround yourself with. if you surround yourself with good people, you will have a good life. guarenteed. im gonna go to the party now. thanks for listening.
bri, sweetie, do what makes you happy. dont let what i think or your parents think decide what makes you happy. youre your own person and do what you love. find that passion in life and just go for it. friends are there for eachother and to not only help you in the hard times but be there for the good times. im there for you in all those times. whether you believe this or not....i will always be there for you.
i want to update more. this is really helpful.
comment away!......if you feel so moved.