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Today I am especially alone.
I have been working a lot as of late. It's almost as if I never leave. I also found out I made employee of the month. I can almost taste that management position. I was also out with a lot of different people today. Though, those moments are but a blur in the vastness of my solitude. The times when I wake up in my big, empty bed. Or when I'm driving in my car. The hours when I sit in my room with my gecko and my fish with my dogs at my feet. These, these are the moments that endure throughout my week.
I can feel the onset of sickness. My body is weak from lack of sleep and my resolve to fight it is waning.
The pain is deadening at times. I feel the sinking when I'm trying to sleep, as my body starts falling away from the bed. You get farther and farther away. I reach my hand out to you... but you're gone... and I just keep falling.
I have been working a lot as of late. It's almost as if I never leave. I also found out I made employee of the month. I can almost taste that management position. I was also out with a lot of different people today. Though, those moments are but a blur in the vastness of my solitude. The times when I wake up in my big, empty bed. Or when I'm driving in my car. The hours when I sit in my room with my gecko and my fish with my dogs at my feet. These, these are the moments that endure throughout my week.
I can feel the onset of sickness. My body is weak from lack of sleep and my resolve to fight it is waning.
The pain is deadening at times. I feel the sinking when I'm trying to sleep, as my body starts falling away from the bed. You get farther and farther away. I reach my hand out to you... but you're gone... and I just keep falling.