And I Still Got Jerz On My Back
-I want to take a brief moment to recognize a brother of mine that is currently doing what he has to do. It takes a strong man to realize he needs to do what he needs to do; and it takes an even stronger one to actually knuckle up and do it. I'll see you when you come home, keep ya head up nigga - and as always, one love.
-What do you do when someone *very* close to you is making mistake after mistake, and you are forced to watch from the sidelines and were specifically told not to say or do anything about it? It is more frustrating than you can imagine - hopefully this particular person (they know who they are) gets their head out of their ass, if not for them - for their son. Just think of this as a little wakeup call - nobody has any special advantages in life. You take the cards you were dealt and do the best you can with them. Take me for instance - I've evolved into something I never thought I'd be, but I grinded 24/7 to get where I'm at now. Nobody ever gave me a free ride; and I can say that with pride.
-The WNY Summer Vacation is winding down - I hate to see it happen, but I am also motivated to go back to school and terrorize the suburbs once again. Indiana has its own positive and negative aspects - although I'll be the first to say that you can take me out the hood, but you can't take the hood out me - I mildly look forward to not having to worry about one time raiding the spot every other day. In the last couple of days, I've been in more than one close call tight situation, and I realize just how close I get to being caught up; and although it is exciting as hell -- I got people that rely on me, so I have to keep my head above the water.
-I'm planning on dreading my hair out - Its been a long time comin', and I'm really exicted about it -- especially since I'll be the only G out in Rensselaer with dreads. I gotta represent it like that - Put West New York on the map when nobody even knew West New York Existed, you dig?
-September is comin' up, that means my birthday is coming around the way yet again. I was chillin' with one of my older niggas, Pretty Tone - and he had a fresh insight - you are only as old as you feel, but the years seem to come faster and faster lately. Before I know it I'll be an old OG - so I'm gonna live it up now, because when I'm about to expire - I don't want any "Should Of"s or "Could Of"s. As I gain more and more experience through breathing and surviving, I am starting to see the world in a different day. When I was a young nigga I really didn't give a shit about anyone but myself, and I never really figured I'd even live this long -- but now, I'm starting to realize that a lot of people lean on me, and I don't plan on going until my time has come, and I ain't going out like no bitch -- I'm more of a Tony Montana type cat. I want to at least make front page, you feel me?
The reaper is callin' - half the fun is evading his grip. Some people like to avoid tight situations, but I feel the only time you are really alive is when you can feel your heartbeat in your throat. Whats the good of being alive if there isn't any sort of tangible pitfalls?
Reppin' the 201
Till Jigga Returns Its All Eyes On J2D
One Love