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wellll shittt!!
here i am, doing my fucking senior paper for the third time.... i seriously suck at this. i am sooo bad at writing its not even funny. this thing is never going to be perfect. so yea, i start work at 7, and im sure i will be pulling an all-nighter to get this thing done.
school was ok today.. other than this paper and not being able to do math. everything else is always easy.
i dont want to go to work tonight... its only a 3 and a half hour shift... but i really dont want to do it. and i want friday and saturday off.. but that wont happen.
yeaa i dont really have anything to write about.. but today i was driving home and i started thinking about how i always seem to find these newfound friendships with girls.. like i always say i hate girls, but then i find it so easy to be friends with them... but its weird because i realized i like hanging out with girls i have like, a lot of things in common with..
with jessica, we were exactly the same. so it was easy.. after she left its like ive just been looking for people that i have things in common with, so i will have something to do, someone to talk to.
rachel neilson.. we had music in common? kind... it was a weird friendship.
then the next girl i got close to was bree.. we had quite a bit in common. both single. both liked similar music and liked to do the same things... then she started getting into different music and was always going to hxc shows with these two slutty girls... so i kinda started looking again.
then i kinda got sorta attached with ashley.. annnd at first we had hating alex in common. then we found out that we like a lot of the same stuff. ...we havent really hung out lately.. so that sucks..
i havent really had a close girl-friend to tell things to lately... so im getting a bit reserved. its like i want to talk to someone. but it seems like all my friends are so far behind on whats going on in my life that i dont want to catch anyone up. so ive been hanging out with my sister. we get along really good and can laugh and be stupid and have a lot of fun. .... where i go next? who knows... another thing that pretty mcuh makes me want to cry, is that i should be able to say audreys my best friend. i tell her everything. she knows everything. but she doesnt... i dont know why, but i never tell her anything personal anymore.. we've talked about this, and were going to try to make things better, closer.. but that didnt happen. i dont know- its depressing. she doesnt talk to me about anything very personal either though. maybe someday things will get better.
i think it all goes back to the things in common.
but yea.. that was an extreme into my brain thought that probably didnt make any sense. i dont know if i should delete it right now or keep it... well.. i guess im feeling daring.
here i am, doing my fucking senior paper for the third time.... i seriously suck at this. i am sooo bad at writing its not even funny. this thing is never going to be perfect. so yea, i start work at 7, and im sure i will be pulling an all-nighter to get this thing done.
school was ok today.. other than this paper and not being able to do math. everything else is always easy.
i dont want to go to work tonight... its only a 3 and a half hour shift... but i really dont want to do it. and i want friday and saturday off.. but that wont happen.
yeaa i dont really have anything to write about.. but today i was driving home and i started thinking about how i always seem to find these newfound friendships with girls.. like i always say i hate girls, but then i find it so easy to be friends with them... but its weird because i realized i like hanging out with girls i have like, a lot of things in common with..
with jessica, we were exactly the same. so it was easy.. after she left its like ive just been looking for people that i have things in common with, so i will have something to do, someone to talk to.
rachel neilson.. we had music in common? kind... it was a weird friendship.
then the next girl i got close to was bree.. we had quite a bit in common. both single. both liked similar music and liked to do the same things... then she started getting into different music and was always going to hxc shows with these two slutty girls... so i kinda started looking again.
then i kinda got sorta attached with ashley.. annnd at first we had hating alex in common. then we found out that we like a lot of the same stuff. ...we havent really hung out lately.. so that sucks..
i havent really had a close girl-friend to tell things to lately... so im getting a bit reserved. its like i want to talk to someone. but it seems like all my friends are so far behind on whats going on in my life that i dont want to catch anyone up. so ive been hanging out with my sister. we get along really good and can laugh and be stupid and have a lot of fun. .... where i go next? who knows... another thing that pretty mcuh makes me want to cry, is that i should be able to say audreys my best friend. i tell her everything. she knows everything. but she doesnt... i dont know why, but i never tell her anything personal anymore.. we've talked about this, and were going to try to make things better, closer.. but that didnt happen. i dont know- its depressing. she doesnt talk to me about anything very personal either though. maybe someday things will get better.
i think it all goes back to the things in common.
but yea.. that was an extreme into my brain thought that probably didnt make any sense. i dont know if i should delete it right now or keep it... well.. i guess im feeling daring.