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yea so i havent written in forever...i have been feeling sick lately...i blame stephanie!...and my head hurts all the time from it being so hot in my room and not having anywhere go to cool down...all i can do is lay in bed and not move...an with the head hurting it is hard to get my ass up to do some reading...therefore i am kinda behind on the reading...im prepared for classes but when the tests start...which start soon...i will be a bit unavailable bc i will never stop studying...i just want it to be nice outside...i enjoy the 60 degree weather...no more 80s please!!!!!
so all of my classes are exciting...well...maybe...the psyche classes really have me evaluating my own life...like learning freuds defense mechanisms...i am in complete denial about how lonely i am...there was also another one where you put all of your energy into something else as to not think about your unhomeostatic balance...mine is i enjoy watching tv...that way i can envelope myself in the life of the tv characters and i dont have time to reflect on my own...sorry ass way of thinking...another thing is that all defense mechanisms are unconcious so as soon as i start realizing what im doing...which i am bc im studying the crap...then the mechanisms will not work and i will have to move on to the next one which we have no choice that we dont realize...and i wont lie...its kinda violent...so if i become a bitch...i apoligize in advance...you know this is a nice way for me to vent and crap...and just think at the end of the semester when i have to write what my personality is i can just come back and look at all of this crap!
so all of my classes are exciting...well...maybe...the psyche classes really have me evaluating my own life...like learning freuds defense mechanisms...i am in complete denial about how lonely i am...there was also another one where you put all of your energy into something else as to not think about your unhomeostatic balance...mine is i enjoy watching tv...that way i can envelope myself in the life of the tv characters and i dont have time to reflect on my own...sorry ass way of thinking...another thing is that all defense mechanisms are unconcious so as soon as i start realizing what im doing...which i am bc im studying the crap...then the mechanisms will not work and i will have to move on to the next one which we have no choice that we dont realize...and i wont lie...its kinda violent...so if i become a bitch...i apoligize in advance...you know this is a nice way for me to vent and crap...and just think at the end of the semester when i have to write what my personality is i can just come back and look at all of this crap!