"Sometimes, you just gotta choke a bitch."
Like any normal girl, I get excited over the progress Craig and I make. But then, sometimes I worry. We're thinking about taking a cruise over spring break, to Cozumel. My mom suggested it.
Sometimes I worry what will happen if we break up. I'll mourn the loss of my best relationship yet, and when I start dating someone new, there will be nothing to share with that person. I'll have already taken instate and international vacations with my ex boyfriend, done the whole together for days on end thing, already had my toothbrush and pajamas at the significant other's home, honestly see a future together thing. What will be left? Living together, and marriage. And don't get me wrong - those two things are HUGE. But I worry that I'm rushing it with Craig. But it's so hard to stop myself - we enjoy each other's company, I love him, he's fond of me, we work well together - so why SHOULDN'T we enjoy the fruits of our fantastic relationship? Why withhold on something for fear of what will be left for the next person? Isn't that optimistic and pretty shitty, to say, "well, if/when we break up, I don't want the next guy to feel less than." I'm not a pessimistic person. And I don't want to stop a good thing.
But still. I worry sometimes. Because this isn't Craig's first time vacationing with someone, and I know I feel weird about that sometimes. He's done international travel with an ex - Canada, but still. I know how it makes me feel, and I wouldn't want to put that on anyone else. But let's be realistic. Craig is older than me by four and a half years, so it makes sense he's four and a half years' life experience ahead of me. And if we break up, and I'm dating someone when I'm 24, they shouldn't expect me to have no dating experience under my belt.
I totally understand why some people wait to get married before having sex. You want there to be something to give to your future spouse. And I know that giving someone your heart and love and devotion for the rest of your life is more than you can give to anyone else, I'd really like there to be something tangible. And that's why the diamond industry is so huge.
I'm a romantic, what can I say?
Sometimes I worry what will happen if we break up. I'll mourn the loss of my best relationship yet, and when I start dating someone new, there will be nothing to share with that person. I'll have already taken instate and international vacations with my ex boyfriend, done the whole together for days on end thing, already had my toothbrush and pajamas at the significant other's home, honestly see a future together thing. What will be left? Living together, and marriage. And don't get me wrong - those two things are HUGE. But I worry that I'm rushing it with Craig. But it's so hard to stop myself - we enjoy each other's company, I love him, he's fond of me, we work well together - so why SHOULDN'T we enjoy the fruits of our fantastic relationship? Why withhold on something for fear of what will be left for the next person? Isn't that optimistic and pretty shitty, to say, "well, if/when we break up, I don't want the next guy to feel less than." I'm not a pessimistic person. And I don't want to stop a good thing.
But still. I worry sometimes. Because this isn't Craig's first time vacationing with someone, and I know I feel weird about that sometimes. He's done international travel with an ex - Canada, but still. I know how it makes me feel, and I wouldn't want to put that on anyone else. But let's be realistic. Craig is older than me by four and a half years, so it makes sense he's four and a half years' life experience ahead of me. And if we break up, and I'm dating someone when I'm 24, they shouldn't expect me to have no dating experience under my belt.
I totally understand why some people wait to get married before having sex. You want there to be something to give to your future spouse. And I know that giving someone your heart and love and devotion for the rest of your life is more than you can give to anyone else, I'd really like there to be something tangible. And that's why the diamond industry is so huge.
I'm a romantic, what can I say?