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Sooo I really wanted to see my boyfriend this weekend.. I kind of wish I had gone home because I don't think he fully understands how much I miss him. I think about him ALL the time.. and hopefully he thinks about me too.
Tonight should be fun tho.. my cousin is coming up w/ his cousin and we're all going to hang out. I really wish Jeff didn't have to work.. it would have been so much fun if he could make it up here this weekend. I understand that he can't because he has to work and stuff but I still get disappointed cause it would have been fun.. u know?
It's kind of hard because he has been getting really annoyed with me lately and I wish I could read his mind. Like he got all pissed off at me for "yelling in the phone" when I really don't realize that I am. He was like you get annoying when I have to keep telling you something over and over again. So that kind of made me cry because I don't mean to frustrate him and I didn't realize that I was "yelling." I don't know.. just the way he talks to me sometimes makes me feel like I'm stupid and can't do anything right, maybe I just take stuff the wrong way.. I dunno. But it upsets me bc I feel like I can't do anything right with him :( But if I try to tell him that's the way I feel I think he would just get annoyed with me or get mad or frustrated with me.. I dont know.. will I ever be able to do things right?? :(
Tonight should be fun tho.. my cousin is coming up w/ his cousin and we're all going to hang out. I really wish Jeff didn't have to work.. it would have been so much fun if he could make it up here this weekend. I understand that he can't because he has to work and stuff but I still get disappointed cause it would have been fun.. u know?
It's kind of hard because he has been getting really annoyed with me lately and I wish I could read his mind. Like he got all pissed off at me for "yelling in the phone" when I really don't realize that I am. He was like you get annoying when I have to keep telling you something over and over again. So that kind of made me cry because I don't mean to frustrate him and I didn't realize that I was "yelling." I don't know.. just the way he talks to me sometimes makes me feel like I'm stupid and can't do anything right, maybe I just take stuff the wrong way.. I dunno. But it upsets me bc I feel like I can't do anything right with him :( But if I try to tell him that's the way I feel I think he would just get annoyed with me or get mad or frustrated with me.. I dont know.. will I ever be able to do things right?? :(