Everything There is to Know (PG-13) Jack/Sawyer

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Title: Everything There is to Know
Pairing: Light Jack/Sawyer, smidgeon of Sawyer/Kate
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Sawyer reads the file on Jack
Note: Sticks to canon up through "I Do" and then departs sharply, with Kate and Sawyer being recaptured. Thanks so much to foxxcub and zelda_zee for betaing! :)

Comments

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Oh wow, you've totally blown me away!

I really loved the idea that a person is so much more than the facts of their life and that Sawyer knows them better than the Others do, even if he had little or no idea about their pasts.

It's so sad that he doesn't know how to accept someone feeling bad for him. He doesn't understand empathy. I don't mean that he can't feel empathy, I mean that he can't accept it from others. He's very developmentally stunted emotionally, I think.

*nods* I've always seen Sawyer that way. He just doesn't know how to handle getting close to someone -- especially if they know what happened to him. And he has to go and fall for a woman who's even more emotionally stunted and prone to run than he is. Poor guy. :-(

I'm so glad that they way they reacted to these revelations about other worked for you. I was worried that it was too subdued so it means a lot to hear that it played out in a way that rang true.

But then the concern that Jack feels for him, that that's the only real time he comes out of himself, when he sees all the ways that they hurt Sawyer, the only other time being when he talks about his hatred for his father. It's very telling that those are the only two things that draw him out - his relationship with his father and his doctorly duties.

And wow, I hadn't thought it through quite as deeply as what you've said here, that what Jack mentions after reading Kate's report is his own hatred of his father, but I love what you said, that he's reverting to familiar roles and familiar hurts. I think he's a bit lost and trying to find a way to understand Kate and to still connect with Sawyer. My whole idea here, besides them finding out more about each other, was that no matter what kind of wedge the Others try to drive between them, no matter what sins they've committed and what happened between Kate and Sawyer, they still have a connection. And yeah, that connection is probably mostly in our minds at this point, but dammit, I'm going to keep reading that in as long as I can.

Thank you so much for this wonderful feedback! :) This season has been really hard on Jack/Sawyer and it's so nice to still be able to write them, but for it to resonate so much with you and others makes me want to keep watching and reading and writing them. ♥