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[halfaname]

[Private]Dammit, why can't we make it a kriffing week without fighting about something? It wasn't like I wanted to leave her. She kriffing told me to go, but I know that's not going to convince her now

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[willofdurasteel]

. . .

[halfaname]

If you want to yell at me some more Jaya, just do it.

[willofdurasteel]

Did you ever think that maybe, even if I tell you to go, in my heart I want you to stay? For kriff's sake, Zekk! I love you.

And you leave me all the time.

I.. I just...

My heart can't take any more.

[halfaname]

[in his own journal, once this conversation is over he's going to, like, draw little hearts around where she wrote 'I love you' or something]

No, because that wouldn't make much sense now would it. If you say to leave I'm going to do that, Jaina. I can't read your mind.

I know, alright? I kriffing know. Do you think I don't hate the fact that I can't stop running from my problems? But it's all I ever do and all I've ever been doing my whole life.

I'm sorry, ok?

[willofdurasteel]

Women sometimes do something called playing hard to get. I was afraid to get close to anybody so I acted like I didn't care--when all I wanted, needed was somebody to see through it and be there anyway. When you said we had the Force and each other--after Myrkr and then bailed, I.. I don't know.

You could if you'd kriffing open yourself to the Force. I keep my mind open around you for a reason, you idiot.

Then STOP! Do you think I can take seeing you run off now because things are difficult--when I don't have a bond with anyone else here? My bond with Jacen is..

[ it was shattered, broken ]

. . .

[halfaname]

You know what? I'm done with this. We had this discussion years ago and it didn't solve anything. Its the past, ok? Let's let it stay that way. We're here now and starting over. End of story.

What happened with Jacen?

[willofdurasteel]

No. You're done with it, then forget it, Zekk. There's no need for you to know. Or care.

[ immediately turns herself off in the Force. ]