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[Private/So hackable it's laughable because of plot]
Nightmares. Every night since I got here, I keep having nightmares.
Why? Why do I keep dreaming? It's making me exhausted. And why always...why always those times?
Danny, Valerie, Mom, Jazz, Elliot...everytime. I keep dreaming them everytime. They're dead. I know they're dead. I accept that. And then even Vlad...I hate him though. Sure, he helped me then, but that was for his own vendetta...
But he said those words to me. Before we fought. Those...those words I have wanted to hear since I found out the truth about him.
'I'm sorry.' He apologized to me. He actually APOLOGIZED to me and with that look...I...I don't think he could have been lying. And he died. He died HELPING ME.
I couldn't save him. I couldn't save anyone I really cared about. I didn't even know Danny was in danger! Valerie died while I was RIGHT THERE and so did Jazz. Mom was far away, but still, I never knew until it was too late. And Elliot...Elliot who helped me so much...died while playing decoy for me so I could get could try and get to Vlad to get that information we needed.
And I hadn't even succeeded then...
DAMNIT! WHY DO I KEEP DREAMING THIS?! I had them before, but it wasn't EVERY NIGHT! At least I took the opposite room from Danny or he might notice me awake half the night, but how long can it go? How long till someone notices I can't sleep? I don't want them to know.
I was a bad hero. I was weak. I'm still weak. The least I can do is not worry my friends...
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Nightmares. Every night since I got here, I keep having nightmares.
Why? Why do I keep dreaming? It's making me exhausted. And why always...why always those times?
Danny, Valerie, Mom, Jazz, Elliot...everytime. I keep dreaming them everytime. They're dead. I know they're dead. I accept that. And then even Vlad...I hate him though. Sure, he helped me then, but that was for his own vendetta...
But he said those words to me. Before we fought. Those...those words I have wanted to hear since I found out the truth about him.
'I'm sorry.' He apologized to me. He actually APOLOGIZED to me and with that look...I...I don't think he could have been lying. And he died. He died HELPING ME.
I couldn't save him. I couldn't save anyone I really cared about. I didn't even know Danny was in danger! Valerie died while I was RIGHT THERE and so did Jazz. Mom was far away, but still, I never knew until it was too late. And Elliot...Elliot who helped me so much...died while playing decoy for me so I could get could try and get to Vlad to get that information we needed.
And I hadn't even succeeded then...
DAMNIT! WHY DO I KEEP DREAMING THIS?! I had them before, but it wasn't EVERY NIGHT! At least I took the opposite room from Danny or he might notice me awake half the night, but how long can it go? How long till someone notices I can't sleep? I don't want them to know.
I was a bad hero. I was weak. I'm still weak. The least I can do is not worry my friends...
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