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ah, forgot to mention..
one [or two] things i'm NOT going to look forward to this thanksgiving? talking about ME.. see, our family is alot like 13 year old girls.. in the way that if you tell someone something.. he WHOLE FAMILY knows about it in a few days.. prolly less. so, since my mother had to go blurt about my air force thing in front of a good few of the immediate fam it undoubtedly means I will be a big topic thursday.
its not that i'm ashamed.. but i'm just unsure.. and i hate HATE attention.. esp controversial attention.. ew.
so.. this is gonna be exciting..
"so katie.. how's the college search going.."
or
"so, i hear you want to join the air force? good for you!"
or
"so, i hear you want to join the air force? why would such a bright girl want to do something like that?"
..yeah.. not gonna be tons of fun.. my only hope is to get them all to eat lots, fast [something they're good at..] and put them into a turkey-coma.. {TRYPTOPHAN!! TRIP-TO-EUROPE!, TRIP-TO-CARRIBEAN! anyone? anyone?? commercial???? lol]
and something else i'm not so excited about? praying.
yeah it sounds pretty bad.. but when you're a 17 yr old girl and BI and seriously questioning faith.. praying just ISN'T on the top of your to-do list. not gonna lie.
i mean, i'm going to hell anyway.. why bother?
[sarcasm! but no really.. i am]
anyway.. it used to feel.. right.. now it just feels weird. i dunno.. the whole catholic school brainwashing thing isn't so far off.
hmmph
anyway.. any suggestions?? i could use 'em
one [or two] things i'm NOT going to look forward to this thanksgiving? talking about ME.. see, our family is alot like 13 year old girls.. in the way that if you tell someone something.. he WHOLE FAMILY knows about it in a few days.. prolly less. so, since my mother had to go blurt about my air force thing in front of a good few of the immediate fam it undoubtedly means I will be a big topic thursday.
its not that i'm ashamed.. but i'm just unsure.. and i hate HATE attention.. esp controversial attention.. ew.
so.. this is gonna be exciting..
"so katie.. how's the college search going.."
or
"so, i hear you want to join the air force? good for you!"
or
"so, i hear you want to join the air force? why would such a bright girl want to do something like that?"
..yeah.. not gonna be tons of fun.. my only hope is to get them all to eat lots, fast [something they're good at..] and put them into a turkey-coma.. {TRYPTOPHAN!! TRIP-TO-EUROPE!, TRIP-TO-CARRIBEAN! anyone? anyone?? commercial???? lol]
and something else i'm not so excited about? praying.
yeah it sounds pretty bad.. but when you're a 17 yr old girl and BI and seriously questioning faith.. praying just ISN'T on the top of your to-do list. not gonna lie.
i mean, i'm going to hell anyway.. why bother?
[sarcasm! but no really.. i am]
anyway.. it used to feel.. right.. now it just feels weird. i dunno.. the whole catholic school brainwashing thing isn't so far off.
hmmph
anyway.. any suggestions?? i could use 'em