buzz kill
life really never lets you enjoy your good days. i has so much good news yesterday and today has been a funk. school is over i should be happy and unstressed. but i feel like i just wanna cry. i have no reason, i never do. i woke up late, and was sick as fuck from allergies. so i decided i just should stay home and relax. i can go to the gym later. although i think it wouldhave realyl helped me from reaching this state of mind. i'm suuuuper bummed that the furniture i wanted from this girl in berk sold it ALL last night. i was supposed to go pick it up today and i knew i wanted it. i was so set on it. it was only 60bucks for all of it and now its gone. but you cant cry over spilt milk or sold furniture. i just didnt wanna keep looking, it was perfect. now theres just crap on craigslist. i've got a lot to clean up and do today and i'm pretty unmotivated. the ohone keeps ringing off the hook and i cant focus on anything one thing for more than 20 minutes.
another thing that has really brought me down today is my grandmother. she cant seem to understand this idea of going away to college. apparently, "that's what the american's do." yes, grandma, i have been born and raised in the united states and that's what we do here, we get educated and we may travel quite a distance from home to do so. its not a bad thing, its a growing up thing. theres nothing wrong with me wanting to move out at the age of 20 to broaden my horizons. it doesnt mean that i wanna sleep around even if that is what girls in latin america do. i cant even be happy about moving around her and i cant ask her for any of my old furniture because she doesnt want it to go in my new place. nobody can talk about me moving because she gets upset and then we hear about it nonstop for the next hour. i understand her concern but times and cultures are different. it's so hard to be caught in this culture, language, generation gap
another thing that has really brought me down today is my grandmother. she cant seem to understand this idea of going away to college. apparently, "that's what the american's do." yes, grandma, i have been born and raised in the united states and that's what we do here, we get educated and we may travel quite a distance from home to do so. its not a bad thing, its a growing up thing. theres nothing wrong with me wanting to move out at the age of 20 to broaden my horizons. it doesnt mean that i wanna sleep around even if that is what girls in latin america do. i cant even be happy about moving around her and i cant ask her for any of my old furniture because she doesnt want it to go in my new place. nobody can talk about me moving because she gets upset and then we hear about it nonstop for the next hour. i understand her concern but times and cultures are different. it's so hard to be caught in this culture, language, generation gap