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I think that it is maybe time to start distancing myself from Hank. He seems to want to be best friends at work and then just ignore me the rest of the week and I cannot emotionally handle that. I feel so drained. I need to figure out a way to fill up my life without him because I am so sick of practically having to beg him to hang out with me or talk to me outside of work. We were inseparable best friends less than a month ago, but now that he's with Bill he seems to have very little desire to talk to me outside of work. He says that's not true, but he hasn't invited me to do anything with him in a month (usually he probably would have invited me to do 3-4 things with him in that time period) and I didn't get a response to the text I sent him at 9:30pm Wednesday until 4:15pm Thursday, which honestly feels like a snub considering how frequently I know he checks his phone (and the fact that I know he was just in school and he has downtime in between classes.)
There was this guy that I dated briefly last month who I recently called things off with. I keep finding myself wanting to reach out to him out of sheer loneliness. I won't because it's wrong, but goddamn do I feel like it would be nice to have someone to hang out with and to lie in bed cuddling with. I just feel like I need someone to hold me.
My best friend doesn't care about me anymore. I am so broken.
Btw, Hank, Bill, and I were supposed to have breakfast on Sunday, but when I said by to Hank today, he said, "See you next Friday!" so I guess he's forgotten. Whatever.