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[half_cigarette]

my minds gone. ive got nearly a million things running through it. thinking gets me no where. i dont want a moment to "just relax" because thats when i realize ive got too much to swallow.
i must be preoccupied at all times so that i wont even have time for the pain life throws me.

trust me. i know storing my emotions deep down solves nothing but its a temporary solution

please, cant i just pretend to be happy.