How I wish, how I wish you were here, We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl.....
I'm so out of it. Yesterday was comparable to the worst day of my life.
Ok... let's see. Thursday morning, Stephanie and I drove to Tennessee to get fireworks. Good times. We had a fun little road trip. But for some reason, the whole trip I kind of felt weird.... like kind of sad.... for no real reason. I dunno. But yeah, I got back home, and showed the fam all the fireworks I got, and decided that I'm gonna shoot them off on Sunday with Coryn since no one has to work on Monday.
Ok, so yesterday morning my mom told me that my uncle that lives in Ohio was in the hospital. She told me that he had had a mini-stroke kind of thing and his left half was paralyzed **so was my grandmothers** and they found internal bleeding in his head. So they examined him a little further to see where the bleeding was coming from..... and they found a tumor. An inoperable tumor. On top of that, they found cancer in his lymph nodes... which means it's already spreading through the rest of his body. At this point..... there's nothing they can do but make him comfortable. He's going to die. He's going to die and I can't do shit, but stand idly by and watch. I feel sick.
We're making an inpromptu road trip to Ohio sometime soon.... I'll keep you guys updated........ but for now, I need to go wipe the tears away from my eyes.... I can barely see.
------allison.
....dying inside.
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
’cause I know I don’t belong here in heaven...
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I’ll find my way through night and day
’cause I know I just can’t stay here in heaven...
Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please...begging please
Beyond the door there’s peace I’m sure
And I know there’ll be no more tears in heaven...
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
’cause I know I don’t belong here in heaven...
[edit]
I don't want to die without everyone knowing that I love them....... so I do love you guys..... not saying I'm gonna die, but shit happens, and I don't want to die with regrets.
Ok... let's see. Thursday morning, Stephanie and I drove to Tennessee to get fireworks. Good times. We had a fun little road trip. But for some reason, the whole trip I kind of felt weird.... like kind of sad.... for no real reason. I dunno. But yeah, I got back home, and showed the fam all the fireworks I got, and decided that I'm gonna shoot them off on Sunday with Coryn since no one has to work on Monday.
Ok, so yesterday morning my mom told me that my uncle that lives in Ohio was in the hospital. She told me that he had had a mini-stroke kind of thing and his left half was paralyzed **so was my grandmothers** and they found internal bleeding in his head. So they examined him a little further to see where the bleeding was coming from..... and they found a tumor. An inoperable tumor. On top of that, they found cancer in his lymph nodes... which means it's already spreading through the rest of his body. At this point..... there's nothing they can do but make him comfortable. He's going to die. He's going to die and I can't do shit, but stand idly by and watch. I feel sick.
We're making an inpromptu road trip to Ohio sometime soon.... I'll keep you guys updated........ but for now, I need to go wipe the tears away from my eyes.... I can barely see.
------allison.
....dying inside.
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
’cause I know I don’t belong here in heaven...
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I’ll find my way through night and day
’cause I know I just can’t stay here in heaven...
Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please...begging please
Beyond the door there’s peace I’m sure
And I know there’ll be no more tears in heaven...
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
’cause I know I don’t belong here in heaven...
[edit]
I don't want to die without everyone knowing that I love them....... so I do love you guys..... not saying I'm gonna die, but shit happens, and I don't want to die with regrets.