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I have been so ridiculously busy lately. Updating feels so...foreign. And for all of it, I really have nothing to say. I haven't exactly been busy with INTERESTING things. I quit stop and shop though. *celestial voices fill the air as a beautiful golden hue descends from the sky* Rick can't seem to accept it. He keeps asking if maybe I worked less hours I would stay? I have trouble believing him. He'd do it for like a week and then I'd be on a million hours a week again. See, the decision wouldn't be so easy if I didn't hate the job itself so much.
I was talking with my dad about this the other night, though. For all the ways I hate it, I have to admit it's taught me a lot about life and the human race. I used to have a lot of faith in people. I used to whole heartedly believe that everyone was capable of some kind of profound intelligence in some tiny hidden corner of their hearts. But I don't believe that anymore. I think there are a lot of people like that, but as a whole, there's really nothing vastly special about the human race. We're annoying, we rush too much, we don't stop to consider things. We're the "superior beings" and all of that, but in so many ways we're just slaves to ourselves. Stop and shop has taught me what things are worth getting upset about or annoyed by, and, most things aren't. It's also singlehandedly smashed my naive fantasies about every last one of us being aware of our own capacities for intelligence and willingness to appreciate the world around us. Morbid, I know. But you know what? I could write a book about everything that has now come to annoy me about people since I started working there.
All in all though, I can't get upset about it, because I wanted to be a harder person. I got my wish. I wanted to stop being so sensitive, I wanted to be calloused, I didn't want to be hurt by people anymore. I wished I were rougher around the edges, and now I am. So, thanks, I guess. It's taught me patience and the importance of choosing your battles carefully. It's like there's a bunch of life lessons that most people would learn slowly throughout their lives and then pass on to their disinterested grandchildren, and I've learned it all early on and gotten it out of the way. I guess you could say I was looking for it. And you can always be taught if you're looking to learn.
Anyway, I'm supposed to be assessing two competing companies for finance right now. I just can't bring myself to put my financial opinion about the reliability of the McDonald's corporation into words right now. I'm too tired. And then there's the task of doing the entire thing over again for Burger King. Who cares? We all know Burger King gives out cardboard crowns, and McDonald's doesn't, and nothing else really matters, when you really get down to it. Isn't life, in a way, all about who gives out the crowns and who doesn't?
Yes. It is.
I was talking with my dad about this the other night, though. For all the ways I hate it, I have to admit it's taught me a lot about life and the human race. I used to have a lot of faith in people. I used to whole heartedly believe that everyone was capable of some kind of profound intelligence in some tiny hidden corner of their hearts. But I don't believe that anymore. I think there are a lot of people like that, but as a whole, there's really nothing vastly special about the human race. We're annoying, we rush too much, we don't stop to consider things. We're the "superior beings" and all of that, but in so many ways we're just slaves to ourselves. Stop and shop has taught me what things are worth getting upset about or annoyed by, and, most things aren't. It's also singlehandedly smashed my naive fantasies about every last one of us being aware of our own capacities for intelligence and willingness to appreciate the world around us. Morbid, I know. But you know what? I could write a book about everything that has now come to annoy me about people since I started working there.
All in all though, I can't get upset about it, because I wanted to be a harder person. I got my wish. I wanted to stop being so sensitive, I wanted to be calloused, I didn't want to be hurt by people anymore. I wished I were rougher around the edges, and now I am. So, thanks, I guess. It's taught me patience and the importance of choosing your battles carefully. It's like there's a bunch of life lessons that most people would learn slowly throughout their lives and then pass on to their disinterested grandchildren, and I've learned it all early on and gotten it out of the way. I guess you could say I was looking for it. And you can always be taught if you're looking to learn.
Anyway, I'm supposed to be assessing two competing companies for finance right now. I just can't bring myself to put my financial opinion about the reliability of the McDonald's corporation into words right now. I'm too tired. And then there's the task of doing the entire thing over again for Burger King. Who cares? We all know Burger King gives out cardboard crowns, and McDonald's doesn't, and nothing else really matters, when you really get down to it. Isn't life, in a way, all about who gives out the crowns and who doesn't?
Yes. It is.